What drives me on is how much pain can I inflict before the safe word. How much humiliation can I dump on them how close can I go to their edge? I draw enjoyment by their determination to out last my sessions. Fiercely holding on to that last shred of dignity as I slowly strip them of it.
Yesterday I was demonstrating how to use a rod on the backside of my slave boy. I tried to keep it clinical talking to my Agdistis through the strokes but found myself getting more and more into the rhythm of the stroke. It was so much fun watching the welts raise on his white ass. Then with my small paddle I gave a short course on the rapid-fire method of paddling. This type is seen in movies aas the governess is disciplining her charge with very quick unrelenting stokes, delivering several in a few seconds. slave boy danced to try and get away from them but I chased his squirming ass around to deliver a lovely reddening to it. He of course was tied to the rafters but with enough movement to make a sport of it. I love this stroke when they are bent over my knee they kick and squirm and curse as the paddle stings their ass like a thousand bees. SO much fun to see that reaction in the poor little things trying to be so brave, trying so hard to resist their quest of pleasure.
Poor slave looked at me when I told Agdistis how to use the leather belt. That she should not swing to hit his ass, but instead pretend to have a sword and then aim that you wish to cut through his as driving the blade to the back of his penis. The stance of course should be to the side of the slave to allow this stroke plus you can see the pain filled expression on his face when the follow through brings you hand past his body. Oh yes and you get to hear those grunts that they try to muffle. .
Next time I think it will be clothes pegs and tooth picks lets see how little things can cause all sorts of fun.
CLoud
Friday, October 31, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Sessions or just a slaves life
I use the word but dislike the concept of it. Session has been used as a word for reward and for punishment. IT almost seems like a date which is just not evil enough for me. Slavery does not stop after a session nor does it begin with the doorbell. I expect a slave to be in that mode 24/7 for me not just when they will see me or get a reward. Just because I am not there does not mean there are not rules and protocols to follow. It is not all about their little asses being beaten so they can enjoy flight.
What would I call it just a day in the life of my slave.Some days her performance is based on how she follows what I set down and some on how she serves me when I am there. Expectations for a slave should be only that I used her as I see fit.
I will have to say that the most interesting times I have with slaves is when they do not expect me to show up . Standing outside their door I call to say I am coming over then wait two minutes and ring the bell. If they have followed what I set down there is no problem but then how many slaves when given the idea that there is no possible way I would show up do not relax a bit. So for lack of a better word those sessions are so fun for me as they sweat having run around taking off their clothes or cleaning up so fun to see that face of shock when they open the door.
So, I guess till I figure out some new phrase I will have to call them session.
CLoud
What would I call it just a day in the life of my slave.Some days her performance is based on how she follows what I set down and some on how she serves me when I am there. Expectations for a slave should be only that I used her as I see fit.
I will have to say that the most interesting times I have with slaves is when they do not expect me to show up . Standing outside their door I call to say I am coming over then wait two minutes and ring the bell. If they have followed what I set down there is no problem but then how many slaves when given the idea that there is no possible way I would show up do not relax a bit. So for lack of a better word those sessions are so fun for me as they sweat having run around taking off their clothes or cleaning up so fun to see that face of shock when they open the door.
So, I guess till I figure out some new phrase I will have to call them session.
CLoud
Monday, October 27, 2008
A Jounery
A journey always has a beginning . It must start either a physical or mental one. So in the lifestyle just like one in the vanilla, it can go straight but seldom does. Usually it has forks in the road or side journeys that beckon you away, you can loose direction way or find out that the road trip is just not worth it. Sometimes we find out we are just on the wrong road.
k has ,for many years journeyed along her road. Like us all now and then we must stick our heads out of the forest to make sure of our way or see if we are lost. K is now on one of those breaks . She might be back she might find a new direction to take . Lets hope what ever direction she takes her path will past this way again.
CLoud
k has ,for many years journeyed along her road. Like us all now and then we must stick our heads out of the forest to make sure of our way or see if we are lost. K is now on one of those breaks . She might be back she might find a new direction to take . Lets hope what ever direction she takes her path will past this way again.
CLoud
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Nicest words to my ears
The nicest words I have heard is when a slave has read my blogs and said that they fear me. So much power given to me already and they have not met me only read my words.
Fear is such a delightful tool. The slave uses it to reach the ultimate goal of flight and orgasm. It is almost immediate the fear starts then the wetness forms . A trickle at first that one droplet that feels like a burning liquid runs down them internally until it reaches their lips. Fear causes some to jettison or at least wish to urinate as they hold their knees together in the hope they will not wet themselves.
Fear causes them to jump, fidget, be uncomfortable . All this caused by a few words of mine , how sweet. Do they fear their own imagination or do they fear being alone shackled and waiting for me to start. Do they fear what I can do with a flogger or do they fear, they will enjoy it just too much. Then more fear in the thought perhaps they will not experience this feeling again.
Fear a very sharp instrument to help in the enslavement of others and for the slave a path to orgasm.
Cloud
Fear is such a delightful tool. The slave uses it to reach the ultimate goal of flight and orgasm. It is almost immediate the fear starts then the wetness forms . A trickle at first that one droplet that feels like a burning liquid runs down them internally until it reaches their lips. Fear causes some to jettison or at least wish to urinate as they hold their knees together in the hope they will not wet themselves.
Fear causes them to jump, fidget, be uncomfortable . All this caused by a few words of mine , how sweet. Do they fear their own imagination or do they fear being alone shackled and waiting for me to start. Do they fear what I can do with a flogger or do they fear, they will enjoy it just too much. Then more fear in the thought perhaps they will not experience this feeling again.
Fear a very sharp instrument to help in the enslavement of others and for the slave a path to orgasm.
Cloud
Monday, October 20, 2008
Why are you here
A question asked of me by one of the first mentor Gregory. It is a question we should all asked our selves now and then. I enjoy the power and the control over others and the idea that I can do anything with in reason and they will thank me for it.
I enjoy seeing the struggle on their faces as the wait for my verdict on their work and their obedience. I enjoy seeing how much they will take to satisfy me and of course prove themselves so that they are allowed their reward of flight or orgasm.
If asked this of a slave what would they answer? Would a pain slut say that they are there because I like to inflict pain or that they need pain to fly. What makes a slave wish the beating, the humiliation , is it they need to serve or need the pain and so serve as payment for it. The control and humiliation to enhance their pleasure or is it to show what they will endure for a Master. Do they use the lack of control on their part as an excuses to do the unspeakable things desires held back by the morals of church and state. Is it the naughty pleasure of naked sexuality. Why does the slave start into the lifestyle?
CLoud
I enjoy seeing the struggle on their faces as the wait for my verdict on their work and their obedience. I enjoy seeing how much they will take to satisfy me and of course prove themselves so that they are allowed their reward of flight or orgasm.
If asked this of a slave what would they answer? Would a pain slut say that they are there because I like to inflict pain or that they need pain to fly. What makes a slave wish the beating, the humiliation , is it they need to serve or need the pain and so serve as payment for it. The control and humiliation to enhance their pleasure or is it to show what they will endure for a Master. Do they use the lack of control on their part as an excuses to do the unspeakable things desires held back by the morals of church and state. Is it the naughty pleasure of naked sexuality. Why does the slave start into the lifestyle?
CLoud
Friday, October 17, 2008
Consitence
What do most slaves want ? TO be controlled to be given a sense of purpose by having some one take the lead make the decisions and tell them what to do. Their need is to serve and do the bidding of the Master. Do not expect or wish otherwise . They do not want to be liberated or have choice they want the master choice even though they might hate it not want to do it they show how good they are by overcoming that and doing it.
A slave that does not like some thing shows how much they care by doing their best possible job in the face of adversity. The easiest way of loosing a slave give them a choice. Do not give them structure , do not discipline them , do not correct the smallest of faults and you have open a chink in your armor and worse puts doubt in their mind. Oh he no long wants me. I am not serving him well he is looking for another. they enjoy the attention with out it you cannot ecpect to turn the slave in them off and on when you want it is too much of a commitment for them to be able to do so. They must have the punishment s , the tasks and the rules.
There are like children or puppies act with a consistent firm hand and they grow strong things of value weaken the grip and they develop delinquent ways. Slaves when they feel their worse need more of a firm hand and guide to positive thinking then a nurse. NO I do not mean that at the first signs of a cold you should taken them out for some outdoor bondage in January . I mean you tell l them what to do and how to do if they do not heed your words you show your love by forcing them. A simple grab of their ear a suppository up the ass gets their attention quite quickly.
I have been told I am scary , mean , nasty and uncaring surprisingly never has one of my slaves aid this. Always from those looking on . I have been told I am strict , that I punish a lot and I am consistent and I do not go out of role with my slaves . That for me is a key.
A slave does not come to me for my looks , that I have a lot of money. It is because I give them a perception of their desires. I give control consistency, fairness and a black and white way of life. If you error you are punished , if you do good you are rewarded very simple very clear if you do what I say you do good if you choose not to you r punished how simple. No gray area no if ands or buts unless it is their butt and I am whipping it. I like power I am sadistic , they like not having power they are masochistic. I enjoy developing challenges they enjoy surpassing the difficulty to serve hmmm and so why do some Masters tinker with this concept I do not know. It is a very good think we have we compliment each other so why the need to do it differently?
These thoughts were based on a blog by littleone a friend you can read her at
WWW.wtsubbie.blogspot.com
CLOUD
A slave that does not like some thing shows how much they care by doing their best possible job in the face of adversity. The easiest way of loosing a slave give them a choice. Do not give them structure , do not discipline them , do not correct the smallest of faults and you have open a chink in your armor and worse puts doubt in their mind. Oh he no long wants me. I am not serving him well he is looking for another. they enjoy the attention with out it you cannot ecpect to turn the slave in them off and on when you want it is too much of a commitment for them to be able to do so. They must have the punishment s , the tasks and the rules.
There are like children or puppies act with a consistent firm hand and they grow strong things of value weaken the grip and they develop delinquent ways. Slaves when they feel their worse need more of a firm hand and guide to positive thinking then a nurse. NO I do not mean that at the first signs of a cold you should taken them out for some outdoor bondage in January . I mean you tell l them what to do and how to do if they do not heed your words you show your love by forcing them. A simple grab of their ear a suppository up the ass gets their attention quite quickly.
I have been told I am scary , mean , nasty and uncaring surprisingly never has one of my slaves aid this. Always from those looking on . I have been told I am strict , that I punish a lot and I am consistent and I do not go out of role with my slaves . That for me is a key.
A slave does not come to me for my looks , that I have a lot of money. It is because I give them a perception of their desires. I give control consistency, fairness and a black and white way of life. If you error you are punished , if you do good you are rewarded very simple very clear if you do what I say you do good if you choose not to you r punished how simple. No gray area no if ands or buts unless it is their butt and I am whipping it. I like power I am sadistic , they like not having power they are masochistic. I enjoy developing challenges they enjoy surpassing the difficulty to serve hmmm and so why do some Masters tinker with this concept I do not know. It is a very good think we have we compliment each other so why the need to do it differently?
These thoughts were based on a blog by littleone a friend you can read her at
WWW.wtsubbie.blogspot.com
CLOUD
Birthday weekend
Well this weekend is my birthday and Sir Micheal and my Mate have planned something special for me. i am excited with anticipation.
This will be the first time that all four of us, Sir Micheal, lucy, my Mate and myself, have been together in a session. i am nervous about the dynamic but excited at the same time. Now i have had a session with both Sir Micheal and my Mate and that was very exciting. It was amazing to watch my Mate come out of His shell. To see Him tap into His sadistic side...e.ven if it is a small one. i have all these "What If's" running threw my head. i really need to just relax, follow the rules, and do what is expected of me and all should be good. Right? Hmmm.......
i have to admit that i have had fantasies about lucy recently. she is so special to me. i worry that she isn't ready to head down this path but i trust that Sir Micheal will not put lucy in a situation she isn't ready for.
i have been reviewing the rules of Sir Micheal's house. It has been a while since i have been there in a BDSM fashion. W/we all usually just hang out and talk, but never play. i have been instructed to be clean, shaved and dressed in the outfit chosen for me. Just looking at the outfit makes me excited.
i do have a fear that my desires are going to get the better of me. i want so much for my mate to take me totally and completely under His hand, but deep down i don't think that will happen. i fear that this session will make my desire grow and i will be a brat or have an attitude. i suppose that recognizing that possibility will help me keep in check. i don't want to disappoint anyone with my selfish needs.
Rereading this i realize i sound like a very selfish submissive. i am sorry for that. my focus needs to be on my Mate and Sir Micheal....not myself. i need to spend some time focusing myself before i go.
Thank you for letting me share
~fledgeling~
This will be the first time that all four of us, Sir Micheal, lucy, my Mate and myself, have been together in a session. i am nervous about the dynamic but excited at the same time. Now i have had a session with both Sir Micheal and my Mate and that was very exciting. It was amazing to watch my Mate come out of His shell. To see Him tap into His sadistic side...e.ven if it is a small one. i have all these "What If's" running threw my head. i really need to just relax, follow the rules, and do what is expected of me and all should be good. Right? Hmmm.......
i have to admit that i have had fantasies about lucy recently. she is so special to me. i worry that she isn't ready to head down this path but i trust that Sir Micheal will not put lucy in a situation she isn't ready for.
i have been reviewing the rules of Sir Micheal's house. It has been a while since i have been there in a BDSM fashion. W/we all usually just hang out and talk, but never play. i have been instructed to be clean, shaved and dressed in the outfit chosen for me. Just looking at the outfit makes me excited.
i do have a fear that my desires are going to get the better of me. i want so much for my mate to take me totally and completely under His hand, but deep down i don't think that will happen. i fear that this session will make my desire grow and i will be a brat or have an attitude. i suppose that recognizing that possibility will help me keep in check. i don't want to disappoint anyone with my selfish needs.
Rereading this i realize i sound like a very selfish submissive. i am sorry for that. my focus needs to be on my Mate and Sir Micheal....not myself. i need to spend some time focusing myself before i go.
Thank you for letting me share
~fledgeling~
Thursday, October 16, 2008
A place to share
Thank you CLoud for offering me this place to write and share my feelings. You have always been a wonderful support for me and i am grateful for Your friendship.
i find that when i write it helps me connect with my inner self....something i wish to do more often. my inner self is where my submissive self hides away at times. i have a very demanding vanilla life and while it allows me the physical release of my submission it does not allow me the mental/spiritual connection i desire. i suppose a little background would help.....
i am married to and have shared my desires with my mate. In the beginning He did not wish to be a part of that side of my life but gave me the freedom to explore it. i was so grateful for that opportunity although i truly wished He would take the journey with me. After many years of hearing about my adventures (i have always been open with Him about what i do with others) He wanted to become a part of it. Inside i was giddy with delight but i was also scared.
i introduced my mate to a Dominant, Sir Micheal, and His slave, lucy. They are very close friends of mine that i was able to share my submission with. Sir Micheal was very open to helping to my mate learn about the lifestyle from a Dominant perspective. W/we have come very far since that first meeting but not as far as i wish.
my mate has taking a liking to bondage and the more sexual side (if you will) of the lifestyle. He loves controlling that aspect of my life but i desire more. It is almost like a catch 22...give a person a little and they want more and more. That's how i feel. While i love the bondage and control He has instituted in my life i want more control outside of the bedroom. my desire to release my submissive side grows with each day.
Sir Micheal is unable to help me with this because He is finding His way again with lucy. He can't devote the time and energy He would need to me and He feels it would be doing me a disservice to not be able to give me 100%. i understand and i am grateful to Him for all that He has given to me and my Mate.
i guess i am hoping that this blog can be an outlet for my inner submissive that is struggling for release. i want to reconnect with that side of myself and find my way again.
Thank you for letting me share!
~Fledgeling~
i find that when i write it helps me connect with my inner self....something i wish to do more often. my inner self is where my submissive self hides away at times. i have a very demanding vanilla life and while it allows me the physical release of my submission it does not allow me the mental/spiritual connection i desire. i suppose a little background would help.....
i am married to and have shared my desires with my mate. In the beginning He did not wish to be a part of that side of my life but gave me the freedom to explore it. i was so grateful for that opportunity although i truly wished He would take the journey with me. After many years of hearing about my adventures (i have always been open with Him about what i do with others) He wanted to become a part of it. Inside i was giddy with delight but i was also scared.
i introduced my mate to a Dominant, Sir Micheal, and His slave, lucy. They are very close friends of mine that i was able to share my submission with. Sir Micheal was very open to helping to my mate learn about the lifestyle from a Dominant perspective. W/we have come very far since that first meeting but not as far as i wish.
my mate has taking a liking to bondage and the more sexual side (if you will) of the lifestyle. He loves controlling that aspect of my life but i desire more. It is almost like a catch 22...give a person a little and they want more and more. That's how i feel. While i love the bondage and control He has instituted in my life i want more control outside of the bedroom. my desire to release my submissive side grows with each day.
Sir Micheal is unable to help me with this because He is finding His way again with lucy. He can't devote the time and energy He would need to me and He feels it would be doing me a disservice to not be able to give me 100%. i understand and i am grateful to Him for all that He has given to me and my Mate.
i guess i am hoping that this blog can be an outlet for my inner submissive that is struggling for release. i want to reconnect with that side of myself and find my way again.
Thank you for letting me share!
~Fledgeling~
A gathering
I am pleased to announce that another of my past slaves will return to write to this blog. Giving us thoughts and feelings from a unique and different place. Here name was fledgling I feel though she has grown more into a song bird we sit in anticipation for her first post.
minion has also returned to my protection she has lost her way a bit and has requested sanctuary with me. she will be giving us the views of a experience slave both her past journey but more important what lays ahead and her feelings on subjects.
Adgistis has given me delightful news that she will be staying with us in the great white north for a while longer just means some slave boys ass will be nice and warm for the winter painful but warm. As for my friend littleone well I am sure she would love to abuse you for a session or two.
I look forward to next couple of months.
minion has also returned to my protection she has lost her way a bit and has requested sanctuary with me. she will be giving us the views of a experience slave both her past journey but more important what lays ahead and her feelings on subjects.
Adgistis has given me delightful news that she will be staying with us in the great white north for a while longer just means some slave boys ass will be nice and warm for the winter painful but warm. As for my friend littleone well I am sure she would love to abuse you for a session or two.
I look forward to next couple of months.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
A New Journey
CLoud, My Mentor …. My friend. Even tho’ you know … Thank You.
To Begin a new journey …. Where does one really start?
How does one know that as they begin and where they now find themselves is not a choice, but where they must be.
Yet, having the ‘sense’ of …. I’m here, that I belong and can now live My true self takes …
Opportunity …
Taking that first nervous step, yet once unleashed transforms into an action of Fearlessness.
With the gentle guidance of My Mentor CLoud, I have been given that opportunity. Like a wave of anticipation that has finally penetrated its mark, I feel Alive, and want more (and as He knows …) very much more!
Whether You/you are a Master/Dom/Domme or slave/sub. For all of Us/us it has to begin somewhere.
Of course, there are stumbling blocks along the way, situations with others that one is lead to believe may develop further, yet not. No matter, it all comes around as it should and is meant to.
At this point in time I am a fledgling … yet, My soul vibrates with all the rhythms of My past lives that have lived this way before. I believe it is also ‘why’ when I’m fully engaged with what CLoud provides to Me for My feeding … it doesn’t really feel like I’m being trained. Moreover it just feels like confirmation of how I knew I would be as My mind quickly races into the ‘next’ scene well before what is in front of Me is even completed.
So, what does all this ranting really mean?
Even though as I am one whom has only emerged into this scene, I know it is a world that I have lived and inhaled deeply many times before.
So quickly My Dominant spirit has unwrapped itself. So effortlessly I fall in step with CLoud’s introduction to that next level of awareness He knows I must embrace. He provides Me His slaves for My training, knowing it is only to build the foundation for My true self to emerge.
Now only to find one who can complement Me in the purest of forms and join Me … Yet in time, I am sure they will present themselves.
- Agdistis
To Begin a new journey …. Where does one really start?
How does one know that as they begin and where they now find themselves is not a choice, but where they must be.
Yet, having the ‘sense’ of …. I’m here, that I belong and can now live My true self takes …
Opportunity …
Taking that first nervous step, yet once unleashed transforms into an action of Fearlessness.
With the gentle guidance of My Mentor CLoud, I have been given that opportunity. Like a wave of anticipation that has finally penetrated its mark, I feel Alive, and want more (and as He knows …) very much more!
Whether You/you are a Master/Dom/Domme or slave/sub. For all of Us/us it has to begin somewhere.
Of course, there are stumbling blocks along the way, situations with others that one is lead to believe may develop further, yet not. No matter, it all comes around as it should and is meant to.
At this point in time I am a fledgling … yet, My soul vibrates with all the rhythms of My past lives that have lived this way before. I believe it is also ‘why’ when I’m fully engaged with what CLoud provides to Me for My feeding … it doesn’t really feel like I’m being trained. Moreover it just feels like confirmation of how I knew I would be as My mind quickly races into the ‘next’ scene well before what is in front of Me is even completed.
So, what does all this ranting really mean?
Even though as I am one whom has only emerged into this scene, I know it is a world that I have lived and inhaled deeply many times before.
So quickly My Dominant spirit has unwrapped itself. So effortlessly I fall in step with CLoud’s introduction to that next level of awareness He knows I must embrace. He provides Me His slaves for My training, knowing it is only to build the foundation for My true self to emerge.
Now only to find one who can complement Me in the purest of forms and join Me … Yet in time, I am sure they will present themselves.
- Agdistis
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Am I hiding behind the cape
I do love hooded capes but not to hide behind more to produce an uneasiness or fear in the poor little subbies and slaves. Halloween is the one time where we can let evil out o public streets the onetime we can dress like the masters of old is it not. It also has been built on fear. Yes there are angels that walk the streets that night but more hooded fiends are out. The houses visited the most are the haunted ones. Fear is so sought after .
So I bring it in to the lifestyle . I do not do fet wear I do not spend thousands of dollars to make my self alluring or attractive( no amount of money could do that) . Fear on the other hand that I can do with few dollars and my own face. Fear is something that is felt in a cool breeze, in darkness, in not being in control fear is an emotion that makes the person loose self control to the point of peeing their pants if they are wearing some. All I have to do is augment what is already there, I make it a little darker, I cause the air to move so slightly over their naked flesh when they see me they catch only a glimpse if me hooded hiding my eyes they do not know what I look at nor what I think.
So the cape and hood a prop to aid in their fear that is all.
So I bring it in to the lifestyle . I do not do fet wear I do not spend thousands of dollars to make my self alluring or attractive( no amount of money could do that) . Fear on the other hand that I can do with few dollars and my own face. Fear is something that is felt in a cool breeze, in darkness, in not being in control fear is an emotion that makes the person loose self control to the point of peeing their pants if they are wearing some. All I have to do is augment what is already there, I make it a little darker, I cause the air to move so slightly over their naked flesh when they see me they catch only a glimpse if me hooded hiding my eyes they do not know what I look at nor what I think.
So the cape and hood a prop to aid in their fear that is all.
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