Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Sort of a decision

Well the eleventh has past and it is time to make a decision of some sort, The question being what am I a Dominant, a Switch or a slave. I have through out my like gone between the three as my fantasies go so do I. I would have to say that as a pure dominant I am not happy I never feel satisfied. Perhaps because of my limited time and circumstances I cannot enjoy the full services of a slave, As a switch I satisfied both sides of my desires and could play a lot there was always one side or the other waiting to have some fun but again no great commitment which I feel took away a lot from the times I spent in both roles.

The slave side of me has always been more foninant then the others. I would go into the other roles when bored or between dominants. Using other to perfect what I thought would be a perfect dominant. I have found out that the mean nasty and uncaring dominant just might not be the one I am after, Mentoring has been great and I will continue for not only does it help other become better at what they like it has pointed me in a new direction. That maybe a polite respectful person might make the perfect dominant for me.

So the decision besides the commitments I have made I will shrink away from my cloud profile answering emails once a week and not posting to the Stable or other of the Cloud blogs for the next two months and see if I can last or not as a slave.