Clarity

I have recently been given new vision through surgery and the new implantation abilities I have a new liens and vision in my right eye. I see images crisp formation of paragraphs are not as difficult and my depth perception is returning slowly. How well i will recover my vision is unknown but it will be much better then what I had.

If given the choice I would not have had it at this time. Do not get me wrong I do not want to give it back but for one the timing .Having poor vision at Christmas allow you to see so much more. I have lost the starry eye vision of a child, I do not see happiness and joy that should be in the world at this time but instead the stark images of suffering.

The images of pixies, elves and angels has changed into sad men ringing bells without meaning nor knowledge of who they represent. Now my vision is so much better I no longer have to interpret what I see instead I see the dark images in sharp quality. With out thought dismiss them so i can see the next new thing. Perhaps we grow old and loose ability to protect us from lack of care we have given to our fellow man and the world we live on. Sad to speak this way at Christmas but I worry that now i want more. I want the other eye done I have more feeling to things that belong to forty year old not fifty seven year old. I want more and my cravings are of desire not revelling in memories of life.

So maybe there are things that should be left to grow old. I feel greedy so I guess there is clarity in my life now I realize that like others my Christmas spirit is based in greed not giving. Well so much for starry eyed visions and trees . I guess it is time to give I guess it might be time to bring out the chains and paddles and give some one a lovely red ass , As it is Christmas. you know!

I guess if I squint and wear the wrong glasses after having enough wine might help perhaps i willjust slowdown and take everything I now see as if it is a painting and just enjoy the vision and sbsorb the details. Really I think the smile of a child opening their gift on Christmas morn, or a vision of them having a starry eye look at a tree might be better. I might even see a pyxie or two myself.

After all we have the rest of the year to hate ourselves and others.

Yes we have lots of time so a some good cheer is a good idea . Mery Christmas to you all.