Boggles the mind when you think about things

I train dominants with idea of what my slave side wants a dominant to be. I have been mindful of this but wonder if it can ever be separated. When in dominant role I am told I am strict, evil and nasty. I do not hold with mistakes and punish at the slightest provocation. This of course is how I feel I need to be treated as a slave.

I enjoy being the centre of attention. SO having some one constantly watching to make sure I am behaving is certainly a big part of my slavery. Could be why one of the few role playing I really get into is teacher student. I enjoy CFmn a great deal is I see it also relates to my need for attention as being the only one naked in a room with every one else dressed does sort of make you a focal point. That old nightmare of being naked in school or at work is a dream not a nightmare for me. In this manner there is no mistaken who is the slave. Humiliation play that I inflict especially with male slaves a way of putting myself further above the slave by it’s degrading nature. Equally, when done to me puts me wishing to be the lowest from of slave I can. Humiliation of my male equipment could be compensation for my small penis. A man well hung would enjoy attention due to size not quite the same kind of attention but it is attention.

All aspects of what I show dominants in training from rimming to feet licking all protocols to cp have to do with what I want as a slave. Humiliation robs me of my mental strength, it strips me of my respect and the bondage, ass play and corporal punishment takes away from my physical side.

Two of my strongest fantasies are to be the victim of a slave revolt where some of my former slaves decide to teach me a lesson by switching roles. All that I had done to them comes back to haunt me as their slave. The other is that the dominants that I have trained find out my desire to slave for them and they, at a gathering break me through the ranks. Stripped and marked as a traitor to the cause forced to slave for the group for the rest of my existence. Various variations of this play regularly through my mind.

Since there is no set way nor rules written in stone for the training of a dominant as there is non for the lifestyle, I am not breaking with protocols. Since I training in Dominant mode it is not topping from the bottom but is it a consensual thing am I forcing my views in the hope gaining what I want not their desires. That I find one dominant that lives up to my standards and surpassed them. Is there a dominant that will wish to step out of my shadow by forcing me into theirs, through my submission to them. Perhaps one of my ex-slaves would enjoy watching my humiliation as their spit washes the respect away they once gave to me.

SO if this is really what I want to be a slave to the perfect dominant in my mind then is it time to put away my dominant toys and guise and choose the side that seems to pervade my thoughts constantly.

Boggles the mind when a switch starts to wonder about choosing sides!

CLoud

Nipple hygene

Yes Id believe that nipples should be cared for properly. They have a place not only in the world of sensation but of procreation of the species there fore special care must be given to keep the appearance and health of the nipple.

So what I use is a cloth, a nail brush ( the one with a handle much easier to keep your hands out of the way). Cold water (in winter I use snow ) and of course hot water. A good soap and moisturizer. First to make the nipple erect I cool it down with the snow or cold water to achieve it's maximum height. I then grab the breast giving it a good squeeze pushing the nipple out further. At this point I should say that the slave should be secured so the hands and feet cannot move, some have been known to attack the dominants while cleaning, some thing about excited or in pain were excuses used. Then start a good brushing of the nipple and surrounding area five minutes each should do well. Leave one with the soap on and move to the other so really ten minutes for the two.

Rinsing should be done with the cold water first then use the brush again with hot water to make sure all the soap is gone would not want to dry the little darlings out. NOW clothes pegs to stretch them out and allow to dry. To make sure all that nasty water is gone I suggest another good five minute rub down with a very ruff towel makes the nipple stand and surely rids you of any water. Release one of the nipples at a time and no need to be gentle nipples can take a lot.

Moisturizers and creams are up to you but you must work them in well so another good five minute rub down for each nipple. Of course what comes next is up to you add a little lip stick or leave natural I like to reward them at his time if they have been good so I allow them to wear something that will drag across their nipples to re-create the lovely sensation of their dominants care.

Yes some times if they have been naughty before I put on the cream I have sprayed them with alcohol, rubbed lemons on them or covered them in shoe polish and let it dry a bit. There is such a lovely expression o their face when give brush and water and told to clean the nipples of the polish right down to the natural colour.This I find corrects behavior quickly.

I also do this when there is a party and we play twist the nipple. A card game and every one is deal a card odds twist the left and evens twist the right. Jacks twist both Queens use their teeth and the king can do it all with a little goose at the end. After 52 cards the slave is very responsive to any touch of her nipples so responds quickly to commands.

Male slave can follow the same process but it is a little longer as there are two nipples one cock and two balls. IF you do it well the male will not want anything to do with arousal for a little while but of course you know what is best for him do you not.

Training is one ever fully trained

First off I use the word slave for a specific group of submissive yes I do believe there is a great difference. The word slave for me is more an act of enslavement. They have lost a battle or war or have been captured . Whether through a Dominants' ability to capture them by words and actions or by their own mind betraying them. The slave falls into a role they have defined and never wish to leave it they are close to or have been tamed, that spirit and will lies mostly with the master in regards to their decision making of the BDSM lifestyle and the dominants will also hold a great deal of power in the vanilla decisions of the slave . This does not mean they are broken nor under the thumb of all just their Master's.

My answer to my title questions; no one can be totally trained unless they are totally broken what is referred to as a doormat.Slaves can be 90% trained that you do not need to rehash rules and if one is broken they with a word will resume the proper role. The sub I feel cannot , the commitment to the lifestyle is too greatly influenced by what others think , commitments to vanilla life commitments to their own sense of being. Fear of totally letting go of control and giving it over to some one else. I will not delve as to why I just say there is a difference.

The slaves I have had will curl at me feet and expect nothing more from me a submissive has great needs then that. I have great pleasure in having a slave and that drives me to give them the pleasure they so desperately seek. I also after a while will ask and accept good impute from a slave as they think on the lines of what they can do to please their dominant. A submissive and I know this through personal experience will do things to gain pleasure for themselves either by pleasing the dominant or antagonizing them. Small rule breaks , semi flippant answers not conforming to the wishes of the master.

So for me a good slave can be fully trained and errors by them are true errors. A submissive cannot they look for ways to increase the desire for their pleasure and will break rules act coy and antagonize till they get it .