i am rather enjoying my sabatical from the dominant side. Submission has a restful feeling about it . Certainly at this point of time it is far more stimulating . The sesations of torture brings about feelings that have not been present in me for years and i like them. The idea of being ordered around to do mundane tasks only to be told that they have to be redone might seem strange for some but the internal embarassment and humilliation is quie stimulating . I could well see that if paired with the right evil minded person i would forget about my Cloud side and only concentrate on my slavery.

A confession it has been six years since i had a slave and whipped her and truly i do not miss it . However, i do miss the stimulation of being whipped or paddled and the humiliation of it. The idea of saying this and or the fantasy of one of my old slaves take control of me with the following humiliation of being almost a fallen dominant is wonderous. The disgust in thier eyes that they allow themselves to be ruled by a slave could provide some wild sessions as they took their vengeance . Hmmm lovely would it not be.

When you sit naked in the rain do you feel the drops. Can your feel each explode on your skin feel it dance down your face until it forms again only to fall from your chin. Are you aware of it traveling over you skin til it finds others and reforms once again.Do you feel each drop in this fashion ? Now do you feel your entire skin as cover in water yet still feel each drop as the coolness of each is transfered to you? Do you feel their dance ?

Does it excite you ?

You can learn many things in a short period of tiem though many are not pleasant realisations.

At my son's wedding recently I learned how sick my brother is , I also learned that my good friend will be leaving the province and while he will only be about three hours away it might as well be China with my in ability to get around easily.

I learned that my concept of Dominant and slave are either perhistoric or fiction. I learned most dominants do not base their activities on their honour and desires but
 on what other swill think of them. Ilearned that most dominants are
scared to make a mistake so they coin fun little phrases to hide  behind.

I learned that while we have a statemetnt of who is in control the slave,  no-one really is  I learned rules do not exist they are considered more guidelines.

I learned that most dominants in their finery so not know how to dominate or how to be owners then there is the weapons they carry at their sides professing mastery over them .

I worry when entering a room full of self titled with no more experinece except what is fashionable.

I have learned that it is time to keep to myself and a few of my kind and stay away from what is the lifestyle .

Dusting

Creaking and cracking of bone., dust thick with years of stillness starts to fall as a foot seeks the floor. Could that smell be of a new toy ? Something to abuse and use to train once again. Not since minion has there been interest in to do so. Perhaps now is the time.

Protocols

Protocols.

Seems there is a lot of hubbub going on about these things so here is my two cents worth.
I love protocols ,they increase the tension and excitement between partners. They are a simple way of keeping the excitement going when not together and increasing the good tension when together. So for me protocols are a great thing everyone should have them but!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

Protocols are written by the people who are together and some thing that has been harped upon by many people it is very much needed yet often forgotten.

Communication!

Listening and expressing , feelings, thoughts and desires to one's partner.

Yes here I go again back into what I did . Friday night there was a punishment session then a corner time for my slaves I never left them alone just they had to kneel in silence and think about what was next. When I felt they had enough time there was free time to talk about how everything and anything was going. Suggestions were made , some changes were made or explanation given as to why. Play afterwards was always new and exciting .

The wrong time to communicate is when you are tied to a cross gagged . The right time is when you have tried some thing out for a few day you are calm and collected and can express your self. OH and the time out when they knelt in silence was a great time out for me too.

cross post from Darklight vision

The scene
A cool day in autumn the breeze carries a chill to the air in the square where people haave been gathering for the past feew hours . The sun is still strong enouth to warm the rotten fruit and dry the spit and urine on their skin. There the five convicted hand by their wrist naked for all to see and be made fun of. Their families forced to attend. The victimns of theses criminals leading in the throwing of projectiles and insults. Then at noon the firetruck brought up and the howe opens a huge stream of water biting into their skin and cleaning them of debris. Now the punishemnt is meated out to their backs and behinds the quantity and the instruement to be used defined by the judge and the crime.A fantasy no a wish to replace the prison system with . A few months to make sure they have time to think of their crime and more important their punishment. I think far better then spending time in your home on weekend confined to tv and nintendo.Yes all for revenge then when punishment and time are served accept them back into society not continue to punish them so they are driven back to crime as we do now.

Decisions

So after 6 months of operations and sitting around with no exercise and lots of food I have gained 2 kilos. Not a Happy camper, while when I have my Dom cap on does not mean much they are not sold by the pound and while we like to do not have to look like an Adonis.

However , as a slave being naked tends to make you want to look your best. As a slave not seeing your dick because it is small is one thing not seeing because you stomach is in the way is another worse mistaking your big toe for your dick.

Lack of breath for a Dom means you sit more often for a slave means you cannot get away that quick. So for those on the block well I would want to loose these kilos and more if possible if I decide it to be a dominant year well slave slow down so I can catch you! hmmm nope going to loose the weight either way so no help in deciding there .