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I did not know that comment areas were only meant for when you agree with the blogger’s view. Silly me, but not the first time. I remember tell a Pro Domme that she sound like a wining brat because she was upset that a sub dare contact her and not book an appointment. When I commented on her blog that the reason he did not book was that he was looking for a dominant not a whining brat she for some reason deleted my comment. I found her a bit preachy for the role of a dominant some one who talked a lot but said little.

I have a bit of an understanding on preaching. In my catholic up bringing I was destined for the priest hood. For the first part of my teenage life I was preached to. So I can tell most of the time when there is a preacher around. I find preachers are scared of discussion and most of the time will blame an opposing view on not having faith. It would seem to me that it is their faith in the words they spew out is where the lack of faith exists. Now I could confront them or bask them directly in a blog or emails but that goes against what I believe. Everyone has the right to do what he or she want as long as it does not affect others. So if you are here for ideas or wish to have dialogue great if you think this blog is the only idea or way of the lifestyle that my thoughts ae the only right one well you are ass. This is good for me not everyone you have to be an adult and choose what you like and discard the rest.

That said leave a comment whether you like what I say or want to argue I moderate comments not to eliminate comments opposite to my thinking but just to make sure there are no spammers. Unlike others that refrain from publishing or delete comments I enjoy others opinion even when they do not match mine.

Words!

N a lifestyle with out written rules or protocols it can be hard to understand what you are supposed to do through the use of words. A dismal way for some as the lifestyle no only perverts everyday things such as wooden spoons we also pervert the vanilla language to suit out purpose. Woe to the novice that cannot interpret what we say as miss-understanding general occurs. Certain words just pop out as dual meanings. The whip is a long device the flogger some what different you do not whip some one with a flogger more flog with a whip. You can see the difference and usually most will understand right away. When I spoke to a sub and she requested the whip her exactly words were master I need the whip. Well she wanted a spanking she ran like hell when I took out the whip. You can get a good whipping with out a whip but you never beat some one with a whip you whip them it is an art form. Another time a young lady was tell me of her hard limits she said I do not play with shit I said OH scat and she started to leave/ I was trying to be informative she took it as the vanilla word states.

This is sort of different sex what is sex in a bdsm relation, when in vanilla life I make lover to a person and the sex act is only a part of it. I make love to their minds their souls I want every part of them to experience orgasm. I never fuck my lovers I make love. Slaves I use sex as another way of degrading them. When you have a cock in your ass there is not other word you should use then you are fucked/ Taking that cock out and shoving it in their mouth means I am degrading you I am reaching for your enjoyment of being humiliated and forcing you to ask me to continue. So as an answer to my friend tha asked about this well best talk this over with your slave or master as to what constitutes sex and can you have a form of sex with others that does not constitute betrayal or cheating.

SO advise those that know do not think it is clear to everyone I just learnt the term predicament bondage is an offshoot of bondage and here I thought it was normal bondage. Novice open up your eyes a bit every word can have two meaning or three or four remember this lifestyle had to hide itself with hankies codes and words for years to pass undetected it is an old habit is not easily broken.

The one rule I set as golden if the student has not learned the teacher has not taught in other words if you are senior in the lifestyle then it is you fault if the novice does not understand best form of teaching to use listen and talking/ One more catch phrase no question is stupid only answers that are not understood are.

CLoud

Look who is begging at my door

Well bob has come back begging to be given another chance. I have sent out what I need from him and now it is up to him to prove himself to me. Yes I know why take him back Most would not.

It is my feeling that slaves will always make mistakes some times those mistakes will harm the dominant’shonour or feelings toward the slave, I am just one of those dominants that can forgive poor behaviour and errors by slaves as long as they pay for their mistakes. I do believe that punishment is a need of every slave. Some times their perception of hard limits and humiliation are tainted by vanilla standards. Thoughts of freedom or getting what they want is too important to them and if things do not go their way their fantasy they stand up and say no. In the strongest fashion yet regret their words almost immediately.

I do think there is times you should never take a slave back but not this time. When a slave leaves a master many times it is because of communications. Some thing triggers the vanilla side of respect and they stand up and say no more. Then realizing they have failed in their slavery they are full of remorse for that failure that they willing give up the hard limits that restricted their service. They fully give control over to the master thus re-gaining their composure and fully give over control to another, which is what bob has done.

The price he will pay will be that his punishment will be before others. That is for dishonouring me he did not ask for release but instead told me no way would he continue. He will get a total of seventy-five strokes unless he errors this week then it will be more. Fifty will be delivered to his ass fifteen to his inner thighs a weak spot for bob and ten to his precious little penis and balls just so he knows who owns them.

Then I will decide if he will be used only as a training tool or as my personal slave. My belief is that there is no such a thing as a trained slave they need the attention, constant supervision and punishment as well as play sessions. Intense some times, draining on the energy of the dominant yes but that is why I am here to control and give the sweet evil torture of pain that they crave, to allow then to serve without their knowledge as to how.

Boggles the mind when you think about things

I train dominants with idea of what my slave side wants a dominant to be. I have been mindful of this but wonder if it can ever be separated. When in dominant role I am told I am strict, evil and nasty. I do not hold with mistakes and punish at the slightest provocation. This of course is how I feel I need to be treated as a slave.

I enjoy being the centre of attention. SO having some one constantly watching to make sure I am behaving is certainly a big part of my slavery. Could be why one of the few role playing I really get into is teacher student. I enjoy CFmn a great deal is I see it also relates to my need for attention as being the only one naked in a room with every one else dressed does sort of make you a focal point. That old nightmare of being naked in school or at work is a dream not a nightmare for me. In this manner there is no mistaken who is the slave. Humiliation play that I inflict especially with male slaves a way of putting myself further above the slave by it’s degrading nature. Equally, when done to me puts me wishing to be the lowest from of slave I can. Humiliation of my male equipment could be compensation for my small penis. A man well hung would enjoy attention due to size not quite the same kind of attention but it is attention.

All aspects of what I show dominants in training from rimming to feet licking all protocols to cp have to do with what I want as a slave. Humiliation robs me of my mental strength, it strips me of my respect and the bondage, ass play and corporal punishment takes away from my physical side.

Two of my strongest fantasies are to be the victim of a slave revolt where some of my former slaves decide to teach me a lesson by switching roles. All that I had done to them comes back to haunt me as their slave. The other is that the dominants that I have trained find out my desire to slave for them and they, at a gathering break me through the ranks. Stripped and marked as a traitor to the cause forced to slave for the group for the rest of my existence. Various variations of this play regularly through my mind.

Since there is no set way nor rules written in stone for the training of a dominant as there is non for the lifestyle, I am not breaking with protocols. Since I training in Dominant mode it is not topping from the bottom but is it a consensual thing am I forcing my views in the hope gaining what I want not their desires. That I find one dominant that lives up to my standards and surpassed them. Is there a dominant that will wish to step out of my shadow by forcing me into theirs, through my submission to them. Perhaps one of my ex-slaves would enjoy watching my humiliation as their spit washes the respect away they once gave to me.

SO if this is really what I want to be a slave to the perfect dominant in my mind then is it time to put away my dominant toys and guise and choose the side that seems to pervade my thoughts constantly.

Boggles the mind when a switch starts to wonder about choosing sides!

CLoud

Oh no it is a switch

It is funny in a lifestyle such as this that we can accept many different kinks except those that switch. Ones tht enjoy both sides of the whip you could say. I have heard when Doming that I am not a true dominant, I have been called a undecided, incomplete A want to be and of course not a real lifestylers. I have experienced perplexing questions such being asked by a slave how could I enjoy being a slave. Which is a question that makes me think about some one’s interest in the lifestyle. If a slave cannot understand the enjoyment of slavery then why is he here?

So in the future let it be known tht I am a switch and my reasons for switching are tht I like it and tht is how I was trained. If you cannot accept that move along and find your self a real dominant that does not know why you enjoy things as they have never tasted the whip or liked a shoe

A rant

It is funny that my name has things in it that either obscure vision or hides the features of what is seen. Like dust or cobwebs on old books disturb only so often for a tad of information. They fog the vision and make it hard to read.

Protocols are meant to to be easy to understand to provide clarity and the proper way to act in a situation for a slave and dominant. Sadly there is not a book of protocols as many as I have said before. IN a lifestyle that preaches on rules and regulations we have no real shared and accepted by all as the base for any lifestyle relation. Funny is it not! I would gues the lifestyle should not even carry that title, as there is nothing shared no rules, no set way of domining. We do not wear the same clothing. What makes this a lifestyle?

I have looked in all those dust, the books on my shelf and do not see an answer. Worse I see in the lifestyle those I wish not to associate with yet I am associated with them as we have similar enjoyments just they took it past consensual. I see those that in vanilla life are so miss-match as the slave intelligence and stature in vanilla life far exceeds their master’s achievements yet they kneel in respect to one that would not be given second thought. There eis no quality control as there is no school for dominants nor are they required to pass a test, they do not even have to taste how it is to be on the other side of the stick. They merely have to create a name that has master in it and looks dominant. Imagine if you could do that in medicine. Doctor Darklight hmmm now knowing that would you let me operate? We do though so really is it a lifestyle or vultures hovering over head of those that seek but cannot find something or some one to respect. To give up control to, to allow to take over the body and mind is the desire so intense ath they will settle for way less then what they would in vanilla life.

I guess it is a lifestyle of those that are willing to let go of their ideals and settle for less. They need domination so badly that they will accept anything as a dominant let alone a master. Ask any male slave above the age of forty and you might find out that this is so very true. They are the ones that call you master in the first email. They say yes my master even thought they are not collared they are a sad lot but I think they are the only part of the lifestyle that have a shared value.

I thing that is why the old stories of the houses in Europe intrigue some of us so much. There was order, rules. Rites of passage and of course protocols for every thing. Even as a Dom functioning in such an environment is far easier then what we call the lifestyle of today. Doms that wear collars slaves that have degrees of service by title a bottom, sub, slave. Would be nice just to return to simpler ways but then I thought I was when I was in the lifestyle. I feel too much vanilla has seeped in too many that could not take the harshness of the lifestyle and have succeeded in watering it down to the pale image that is now the bDSM community. All this to say if I hear one more lifestylers say anything about safe or sane I will puke. Perhaps it might become a new fetish wear I do not know but it is consensual what I do it is not safe , it is not sane by normal standards.

I have had my little rant I am going back to my sabbatical from blogging and will remain silent until of course I have to puke again.
At best a rant

Inner exploration

I have been quiet for a while and will be for at lease two more weeks. call it an education or a finding of oneself call it what you want just want to let every one know that a bear did not get me on my kyacking just need some time .