Darklight Stables

cross post from Darklight vision

2011-12-22T17:37:00.000-05:00

The scene
A cool day in autumn the breeze carries a chill to the air in the square where people haave been gathering for the past feew hours . The sun is still strong enouth to warm the rotten fruit and dry the spit and urine on their skin. There the five convicted hand by their wrist naked for all to see and be made fun of. Their families forced to attend. The victimns of theses criminals leading in the throwing of projectiles and insults. Then at noon the firetruck brought up and the howe opens a huge stream of water biting into their skin and cleaning them of debris. Now the punishemnt is meated out to their backs and behinds the quantity and the instruement to be used defined by the judge and the crime.A fantasy no a wish to replace the prison system with . A few months to make sure they have time to think of their crime and more important their punishment. I think far better then spending time in your home on weekend confined to tv and nintendo.Yes all for revenge then when punishment and time are served accept them back into society not continue to punish them so they are driven back to crime as we do now.

Decisions

2011-12-22T07:54:00.002-05:00

So after 6 months of operations and sitting around with no exercise and lots of food I have gained 2 kilos. Not a Happy camper, while when I have my Dom cap on does not mean much they are not sold by the pound and while we like to do not have to look like an Adonis.

However , as a slave being naked tends to make you want to look your best. As a slave not seeing your dick because it is small is one thing not seeing because you stomach is in the way is another worse mistaking your big toe for your dick.

Lack of breath for a Dom means you sit more often for a slave means you cannot get away that quick. So for those on the block well I would want to loose these kilos and more if possible if I decide it to be a dominant year well slave slow down so I can catch you! hmmm nope going to loose the weight either way so no help in deciding there .

Clarity

2011-12-18T12:25:00.002-05:00

I have recently been given new vision through surgery and the new implantation abilities I have a new liens and vision in my right eye. I see images crisp formation of paragraphs are not as difficult and my depth perception is returning slowly. How well i will recover my vision is unknown but it will be much better then what I had.

If given the choice I would not have had it at this time. Do not get me wrong I do not want to give it back but for one the timing .Having poor vision at Christmas allow you to see so much more. I have lost the starry eye vision of a child, I do not see happiness and joy that should be in the world at this time but instead the stark images of suffering.

The images of pixies, elves and angels has changed into sad men ringing bells without meaning nor knowledge of who they represent. Now my vision is so much better I no longer have to interpret what I see instead I see the dark images in sharp quality. With out thought dismiss them so i can see the next new thing. Perhaps we grow old and loose ability to protect us from lack of care we have given to our fellow man and the world we live on. Sad to speak this way at Christmas but I worry that now i want more. I want the other eye done I have more feeling to things that belong to forty year old not fifty seven year old. I want more and my cravings are of desire not revelling in memories of life.

So maybe there are things that should be left to grow old. I feel greedy so I guess there is clarity in my life now I realize that like others my Christmas spirit is based in greed not giving. Well so much for starry eyed visions and trees . I guess it is time to give I guess it might be time to bring out the chains and paddles and give some one a lovely red ass , As it is Christmas. you know!

I guess if I squint and wear the wrong glasses after having enough wine might help perhaps i willjust slowdown and take everything I now see as if it is a painting and just enjoy the vision and sbsorb the details. Really I think the smile of a child opening their gift on Christmas morn, or a vision of them having a starry eye look at a tree might be better. I might even see a pyxie or two myself.

After all we have the rest of the year to hate ourselves and others.

Yes we have lots of time so a some good cheer is a good idea . Mery Christmas to you all.

work shop 101

2011-11-29T07:11:00.002-05:00

This is some thing I do not understand. Now here comes the old timer talk. When I started down the path of evil sexuality there were no workshops. If you wanted to know how to do something you either tried it or asked some one who you heard knew how or saw at a get together. The older wiser lifestylers dispensed their knowledge with enthusiasm happy to share. The idea of mentoring was a natural thing but the etiquette of the time and the affects of having to hide what you were from regular folk stop those involved from offering their services and waited to be ask.

minion once asked me why i do not offer workshops , Well there are a few reasons why I do not. The first is that so many in the lifestyle or at least many of those that contact me want the knowledge give to them they do not the trouble of learning it just want to be ble to do it without responsibility. Secondly I will mentor any one who asks and is willing to put in the time and they have to learn in the way I show them. Last it has been forty years since i tied my girlfriend to a tree and had fun with here and of course it was consensual . well I knew more then then I do now so I am still learning so before everyone out there giving course and work shops comes pounding on my door this is my opinion I will always help when asked just don't ask for my diploma .

A question has been raised

2011-11-01T13:05:00.002-04:00

Whether there should be Dms at parties and events? The underlying question has to do with the way that society views it's responsibilities to each other. There seems to be a move toward big brother watching over us. That we are not capable of knowing what is good for us and what is not. More then that it creeps toward being told things are too dangerous for us. It is coming out in sports because of injuries in our personal decision making that maybe we do not fully understand the consequences we do not have the faculties for higher thinking.

In vanilla life I cannot have a pool with out a fence because some one's child might drown. I cannot berate a child for disturbing me in a mall or restaurant because it might affect their development. Schools are not allowing the gam tag or the wearing of scary costumes at Halloween.

Since when did I become your keeper? Watch your own kids like I did. Be responsible for your self do not involve me in your lack of strength to say no to your children. Worse the ability to say no to yourself as you deem it okay to sit in a restaurant while little Jimmy screams , for some reason these cries are heard by everyone but the parents of the little brat. So you have to stay home and suffer and not have what you had before children do not have them if you cannot suffer a bit. I can go on about people too chicken shit to control themselves but i would digress .

Now for the lifestyle. Just like a safe word Dms are not worth the effort as I always say if you are tied to a cross and gaged well safe word will not do much will they. What you need to do is seek put information get mentored watch and learn before you play otherwise it is your fault yes the victim is at fault for rush in for being a know it all and for thinking with their fantasy before they live the reality a bit. Gently pulling you cheeks apart and inserting a well oiled butt plug that is just the right size has a different feel to it when a large pug is shove up your ass with little care as to your comfort. No DM is worth giving your own safety over to them that is our responsibility and who you play with.

A disapointment

2011-08-24T12:18:00.002-04:00

Sadly disappointed in the dominants that what I find to be the majority of what is out there. I find them needy , lacking in strength of character and sub beaten. They do not define what they want. They do not find what their slave wants they dress up like warriors but act like children.

Oh yes they can hit some one but they they do not know how to spank some to orgasm it is almost as if the slave has orgasm waiting for the dominant to look around and see who is watching . Well I was and it was not pretty.

very sad for the future of the lifestyle when this is what slaves are supposed to look to for pleasure and exploration. No wonder there are so many slaves balking at the idea of rules , protocols and control.

A sad day indeed.

Mystic

2011-08-18T10:19:00.001-04:00

It started around five thirty. One of the few times there is no human made noise just the noise trees make when they are still. A smell of forest a feeling of moisture but not mist nor rain just a coolness about it. SO pleasant that i bared my flesh to it and enjoyed nature. Funny the peace one can take from this perfect time and place. It is a wonder why we push so hard to get away from it and go to the elect tonics the bells and whistles that so control or push our stress levels.

All knowing

2011-08-17T12:05:00.002-04:00

I am not! So when I received a reply yesterday I was amused and had to share this well a few sentences of the inquiry.

: Master (I hate that term) I like to say no and stop but i only mean it if it hurts too much or i do not like what is happening. :

I am confused is it just me? How will I know to stop if the same word is used to stop the scene as well as enhance it for her. Now I do not usually use a safe word i find them useless a Dom should know the body he is playing with but i will use a safe word when it is some one I have never played with. I guess that he slave is saying the same thing but communication is so important.

Safe words only protect you if you are with a sane Dom how ever if you allow yourself to be tied up by a total stranger and think a safe word will save you well Virginia no there is no Santa Claus .

B.R.A.T.

2011-08-10T11:32:00.002-04:00

They seem to be pet peeves for many dominants. I feel that many dominants do not like brats because they require a lot of work. They do require a great deal but for Brat lovers they are worth while.

In my time i have had three brats most challenging but just dam good slaves. Amanda would do something or say some thing knowing she was close to the limit then coyly look at me and wait to see if she went too far and while see did not i would still playfully punish. Such as at a munch she was riding a dom a lot playfully about his french how English's it sounded when she looked at me and smiled i ordered a lemon and told her to suck the juice of the lemon because i wanted to see if french girls really had perky lips. We all laughed at her winces and her laugh as she did what was asked by me. Now when it came down to being my slave she was excellent but when she got a little board when that is when i had to stay ahead of her which kept me going i loved it.

So a brat for me is a good thing and so is a good slave.

Choice

2011-08-08T05:16:00.000-04:00

In day s of old and days gone bye
it would bring a tear to my eye
when evil would win and good would loose
then i would have to choose

in dragon smoke and dudgeon lair we would labour
till the knights would stand in favour
to bring back the light of day from darkest night
dark would loose all would be right

Now the days and knights have changed
no longer easy to see through the smoke and flame
not easy to see where to put teh blame
if darkness is evil and light is right it should be easy to see what is right
eyes do dim and fears do grow we choose what causes the smallest woe

So now we sit on high with chest plates polished and shield in hand
we lie and sell our souls to those of the land
with gold and silver in their hands

Do we fight for right or fear
do we try to make it clear
do we stand with brightness of day
or hide in shadows and shade of evil and dismay

So there is the choice it is easily made
to follow the light or enter the cave
to use our eyes and see the knave
or enter the cave and be betrayed.

CLoud

My protocols

2011-05-09T13:15:00.003-04:00

Here they are they have meaning to me so then most important to any slave or sub wanabee that wishes my participation.

Protocols.

Greeting: Greeting must take place upon entree there are three positions.

1. this position is for when you have done every task and your regular chores to what you think is perfection. Standing naked with knees apart arms by your side not touching your sides palms open and facing me your eeyes staring into mine.
2. Kneeling naked knees apart ankles crossed hands on your head eyes staring at my belt this position will be most common for you as this says that you do not know if you have lived up to my measure of a slave.
3. This position is one that you feel you have failed as my slave during my absence. face done on the floor legs open aswide as you can arms stretched out toward my feet forehead on the ground.

While in my presence you will always be naked unless commanded differently.

1. you are never allowed to enter a room I am in or leave it without permission.
2. while attending to me you shall do so from the left of me stand beside me with your knees together and straight your posture must be straight shoulders, chest out and stomach in.
3. your naked flesh is never to touch the furniture unless instructed to do so.
4. you are polite to all but obey only me. you are a slave to me but should be a possession of desire of others I have not chosen you because you are a door mat more that you are a wanted prize make this come through in your actions and conversation.
5. speaking to another dominant your knees must be be together and your right hand must cover your left nipple for the duration of the conversation. another slave or submissive your right hand covers your pubic area

your body and spirit.
1. I do not care about size and shape as much as I do about health, so yes you will be exercising your mind and body.
2. your body will comply to my standards as far as hair and hygiene. what you wear under your clothes you will retain for now the control of your outer garments that will be seen by the vanilla world.

A comment

2011-05-06T18:25:00.001-04:00

A comment on my friends blog. A dominant that agrees damage is not an objective of mine.

Blue is not a colour for humans. Despite the love of extreme play there are ways of attaining the sensation without the damage.

I have seem testicle and penises in deep blue almost black and wonder why? The human body has indicators to let you know it is a little too much. One of them is colour. Red is the first colour when there is a flush or deeper pink from repeated strikes to a spot we know we should move on returning to that spot only when the red or pink diminishes. When it is in the face you know the air way is being closed so you lighten up on the grip of their neck.

So i do not understand when a part of the anatomy is blue you do not realize you have gone too far or worse the dominant was not paying attention. There is knowledge out there that can give the sensation such as the cat's claw. Which holds the testicles securely but does not cut off the blood flow. Binding the breast is the same you can firmly hold the breast without it going blue.

So i do not understand how or why there are those that bow to the wishes of the slave to bind tighter the dominant is in charge at that moment and for all the cute phrases is the one with the responsibility.
Scar tissue damage to glands are all not a requirement of the lifestyle. Caring for one's property allowing the slave to give themselves over with out worry is part a major part of the lifestyle. In youth we tend to think we know it all and do not seek out a mentor that has the experience in the area you wish to move into not just offer a naked ass to some one holding a cane in their hand hoping that warm tingling sensation is shared by the one with the cane.

My ten cents on a subject that the youth should worry about if you want more extreme play you will pay for it later through desensitisation, scaring , aches and pains so know what you are getting into .Now I shall return to my silence.

So bleeding hearts please explain?

2011-04-17T17:27:00.001-04:00

Once upon a time there was the death penalty. Most of those of my age did not agree with it and had it abolished. In hind sight there was a problem with the finality of it due to recent revelations that police used torture and the courts were blind to justice and went for force confessions and left out key evidence. The idea of finding out some one did not do it was horrifying.

I got use to idea of rehabilitation but never felt the victim was treated fairly as they were dead and the killer was alive and on vacation with those of like minds in a prison. Now we have a killer that has served his time got put do to good behaviour landed a job being a song writer and performer and we are upset! He did what you wanted him to do so why are you not going to see his show or accept him back he has done his time? Does not taste good does it. We are not the society of Star Trek . We think we are but we still want our pound of flesh we want him to fail not be good not successful. We want him to fail and never been seen again hopefully go off and shoot himself because we did not want to do it ourselves did we bleeding hearts.

And how much did this cost us and we are still not happy.

Titles

2011-01-12T13:53:00.000-05:00

Titles do so bother me yet they must be used so that fifty questions are eliminated. A Master to me is one that has mastered a chosen discipline. They can also be a master of some one a person. If the latter then it is up to the person who has been mastered to give the recognition or title. If it is a discipline then it is up to those who have mastery of the discipline to judge if he is good enough. This is the way in martial arts which has been around a lot longer then the lifestyle and perhaps we should take heed of the protocols and rules in a way of life that the lifestyle tries to duplicate in a very faint way.

These words are my thoughts on the way the lifestyle is now I would suggest that slave to master think a spell before taking a title that they have to live up to.

My ten cents.

Positions

2010-12-01T09:59:00.001-05:00

I do believe the best position for a male slave is to be hung from the hands. It robs then of their greatest strength their legs it causes them to loose their next strength their arms and it totally exposes their body to the desires of the dominant. Nothing like seeing a male belt whipped in this position as the belt for me causes the right amount of sting and pain and can be used in most safe places leaving a lovely red glow to the skin.

Indecisions

2010-11-11T10:47:00.001-05:00

So, chains interesting things they do to look heavy until you have worn then for a while. Then working in them becomes annoying they get heavy they pinch and are in the way. If there is any sort of wood furniture, you must be extremely careful. They cause you to concentrate and more times then not the chains cause you to look silly. So dare I say the word a challenge just one for me is to wear my chains for five days next week. Sort of help to decides which is my stronger side dominant or slave.

IT was pointed out to me that they do not know how to address me or how polite do they have to be with a switch. I realize this is a point of confusion and can cause difficulties. So am going to see just how much submission there is in me. A few years ago, I agree to try being submissive to any and every one. I could not argue I could not swear I had to treat everyone with the respect I would give to a dominants with out exception. It gave me a lot of insight to how opinionated I was and how I manipulated others including dominants to get what I want. I also tried to do what ever was asked of me to the point of being nice to my mother in law. I am glad she did not suggest anything too drastic.

So once more I will try to see it my submission has improve by putting myself under these rules again. I will see hopefully it this is just an erotic fantasy that occurs now and then or if I am more slave then dom. If I am perhaps a breaking through the ranks party where like the old days of the military the accouterments s of office would be stripped away in front of a room of peers dominants then take the punishment from the dominants for pretending all this time to be their equal. Finally, to be given to their slaves for a final punishment for pretending to be better then they. Hmmm wild fantasy eh okay starting today must be nice to every one do anything they ask that is reasonable and hope those that I was really nasty to do not find out what me nasty no never well almost never lol.

Most enjoyable.

2010-09-10T04:53:00.000-04:00

I enjoy using a lot of different instruments to spank with. On of my favourite thing is a machete. The slap of cold steel on some ones ass is such an endearing sound. I seem to concentrate so much more on every stroke. I see the twitches in the body I am working on and the fear in the slave oozes out of the slave. Questions that must be running through their mine what if he just turns the blade a little how much damage would it cause? What if he just drops it? Fear such a lovely thing when used properly.

A cold tush

2010-07-30T09:14:00.000-04:00

Funny, how when the weather changes! The ease of getting up and not putting on clothes becomes a little more difficult. So I have been told to overcome this so no clothes till noon. Other wise known as slave wear.

nija

2010-07-29T09:32:00.001-04:00

I sat down with lots of time and nothing to do so I put together a list of toys that I like the best now as far as play sessions

1. Wood paddles
2. Yardsticks
3. leather paddles
4. Floggers
5. Short leather whips and quirts
6. Canes
7. Whips
8. After that well I will leave the rest to the Dominant (giggles)

Can you tell I am having a slow day! Time to hang aroundin the garage.

nija

Thought s on Humiliation

2010-07-23T11:34:00.000-04:00

Humiliation is an art form that many think they have mastered. Humiliation play must produce in the victim a feeling of exposure. The most delicate of details or hidden secrets revealed with inevitability. They can be no escape for the victim whether it is to run or verbally defend. Since I know myself well I will speak from my perspective.

Spitting on some one is is saying that you are so weak however if the one spat upon chased the person down the street that does not show weakness. Put the same person in a room of twenty people spitting on him or in bondage caused a different effect. It says you are controlled and we will do anything we want to. Not being able to defend or chase after them produces the helpless feeling sought after.
Size is another point that many miss. The idea is to draw attention t the penis and balls or breasts for women. While verbal can be fun I know of only one that can get under my skin with verbal discussion of my penis how ever put me in a control area where I cannot escape from with the part exposed to visual evaluation alone with verbal and I am totally brought to the level of being helpless that I have no control of what secrets will be forced out. Just like the slave the whole idea is to reduce the slave or one humiliated to a point of doing what is asked of them including exposing greater secrets giving over more control in a constant escalation.

The last part of humiliation who is doing it? Should a former slave take charge of my humiliation that would be utterly embarrassing there fore I would love it. I also find it very stimulating to be humiliated by those of another race which I do not understand as I am not prejudice they just seem to be able to push my buttons in the right way.

A view through others eyes.

2010-06-10T20:53:00.000-04:00

A joke was sent to me it started with What real men are. It listed these wonderful traits that inspired the author of the joke to aspire to many great things. Here it is:

A Real Man
A real man is a woman's best friend. He will
never stand her up and never let her down.
He will reassure her when she feels insecure
and comfort her after a bad day.

He will inspire her to do things she never
thought she could do; to live without fear
and forget regret. He will enable her to
express her deepest emotions and give in to
her most intimate desires. He will make sure
she always feels as though she's the most
beautiful woman in the room and will enable
her to be the most confident, sexy,
seductive, and invincible.

No wait... sorry... I'm thinking of wine.
Never mind.

I thought the punch line would have been a dog actually. Funny how we perceive each other to the point of grouping all men to be less then a glass of wine. I seem to remember many women brning their bras and telling me how much better the world would be if they were in power. I held out hope to see a better place that maybe their understanding of the things would allow them to mother this poor earth back.

Yet power does corrupt even the smallest amount. The statement sof how they would change life and make everyone equal does not show in this joke. IF it was written about real women it first would be chastised in our society as derogatory, belittling females at the least sexist and the author a chauvinist. It would also paint a picture of wine guzzling chauvinist as the norm for all men.

So what have I learned? Humour is another form of bulling power corrupts in a greater ratio in those that did not have then those that had power for a longer time. That no matter how hard one tries to stop the pendulum in the middle it will swing freely to compensate for how far it was on the other side.

When we look though others eyes we see the injustice but when looking through our own eyes we enjoy the power.

Not a rant just a thought, looking through my eyes.

Thoughts on 24/7

2010-06-07T11:04:00.001-04:00

Fo LDW and kamala

In a twenty/four seven relation you have two solitudes. Tha slave’s interpertaiona nd the Owners.

The slave will look to the owner for thier desires to be met for as much of the time as they deem possible. If any owner was ever albe to live up to these expectations, they would be wearing a blue body suit with red short and red cape usually answering to anything preceded by the word super. The idea of a slave would put all decision making upon them but balk at the idea that some one else deemed by the owners to do the everyday things and decisions such as the slave themselves.

Imagine getting up every morning and having to decide what underwear to put on then deciding what your slave should wear eat do. Having a robot that you have to program every day would be the extreme o f desires but I am sure that any owner reading this or Dominant whould sit back and say this is what their slave would want total loss of control total absence of responsibility for themselves. All they have to do is do what they are told or accept the punishment.

The Dominant on the other hand while we think of ourselves as just people might well have the extreme idea that once trained that is how they remain never faulting again never causng extra work. We would have perfect households. Food would be ready on the table our slippers at the door when we enter. While at the beginning this might be true later on this will change as the salve feels with more time there should be more play. With out more play the control will be taken back from the dominant in rules not followed arguments poor service insolence and general break down in th eslave Master relationship.

The extrems of both must be discussed and fully exposed. IN that fashion both parties will have been honest and a common grofor slavery and service will be found. It is not for every one! There are many compromises both parties must go through. A concern might be the area of health and some thing as small as diet. If a slave is missing vitamins in their deit yet refuse to eat their veggies lets say even after their doctors a has told them to. Is this an area you want to worry about ? If you force them to even thought they say you have control they will also sit back and say to themselves after looking at those green things on their plate again thinking I am perfect healthy with out those things. Are you stong enough to stare them down and is the slave strong enough or trusting enough that you are doing this for them and not the power trip that you can.

Living up to expectations

2010-05-26T11:11:00.000-04:00

Living up to expectations.

It is funny how others will bestow certain actions and beliefs on you. If you are a dominant, you must wear leather pyjamas and never be nice to anyone. If you are a slave well you cannot have thought or rights. I hve seen the stress of expectation change individuals as they strive to meet the expectations of others and not the desires that they have . To please the other they confine themselves in rules protocols or traditions that others have because that is what they think is expected of them.

I do not eat puppies or kittens. I have a vanilla life and as far as I know no police agency is seeking my alter ego the mr hyde part. As fara as being a vampire no I like meat not just the blood. I used to hunt but found ther e to be no sport in hunting anymore as it does not provide equal opportunity for the animal to win. Before anyone jumps upcrying I used and Indian bow which you had to be withint fifteen yards to kill your prey not an easy task by any means as animals are much smarted then we are in the wild. I never hunted bear but one hunted me and I did sit in a tree for close to four hours contemplating whether I could outrun the bear before she left.

Expectations are a projection of desere if you cannot express them in some language then best not participate until you can. So answers yno I am not evil yes I have an evil mind. I am a bit of a sadist and yes a bit of a masochist. I love protocols when done right they produce a sexual tension that raely can be reproduced by other type of play , no I do not need it it is not an expectation. What is an expectation well are you human , have the legal right to make decisions and an open mind well that is what I ecpect.

And really, really I like puppies

A third letter to kamala

2010-05-03T11:00:00.000-04:00

My dear sweet kamala,

Did you think that my evil ways and actions grew through a limited education? With Gregorian as my mentor, he exposed me to everything in his view of the lifestyle. The tender side and extreme play by today’s standards Branding, fire play anal torture all sort of things that some would smile at and others as your comment has shown squirm a bit. He was the one that taught me that a Dom or Master is merely a tool to be chosen by and used appropriately by the slave. HE did not believe in submissives but did in switches now do you wish me to continue as I will not shield your eyes or would you like to talk of something else?

CLoud

The door does open

2010-04-29T10:40:00.001-04:00

A second letter to kamala.

One would expect the phrase and then a whole new world open but in reality , the green door opened upon two other doors. One od solid wood dark in colour with highly polished brass door knobs and hinges. A fine fellow of a doorman in fully regalia including white gloves. As we approached, he asked of us a question Cloak or collar. Those of us that said whip were ushered into a changing room with attendants dressed in only a tuxedo jacket with tails, Those that did answer with collar were pushed along to wooden steps into a small hall where they undressed were given a collar the number from the basket attached to the collar. They then gave their baskets to the servant at the end of the hall and were asked the colour. The colour ribbon was for the level that there were at.

On the other side we were enjoy food and drink as the slaves scurried about removing our clothes and dressing us for the evening. The uniform of the day was riding pants boots and bare chest and of course the regulation cloak with hood. Then we were ready for the poor charges that awaited us.

The light some one dimmer as we entered a great hall and there was sights to blind out intellect. Naked slaves in a line on their knees waiting to be chosen for the night and if you felt like you took two of them. One tule all slaves had to be played with as much as possible that was the only rule for Dominants.. kamala I will tell you that I was escorted by a women of thirty years to a table for food and refreshments there was a women on the table her legs spread wide with a turkey drumstick protruding from her vagina. I asked my slave why she was there. If was a punishment for eating before her master. Everyone that came to the table was to remove the turkey leg then she had to make a pig sound then you replace the leg once again in her vagina. You can imagine the sport as you could do it as often as you wanted to.

I will leave you with that thought I must run but will write again soon.

CLoud

A letter to kamala

2010-04-15T15:36:00.000-04:00

Light that breaks the sleep is not always seen as light but as an annoyance. IT, is the light that is seen in the darkness or is it the light that hides the singular thought and masks it with all the other thoughts and decisions of the day.

A long thought of response for kamala

Kamala has asked to hear of my early days of dark streets and hidden doors. Cloaks with hoods and naked flesh intermingling, as if to say this should be the norm. Rules set in stone by a singular person with a strong will and not lacking in evil thought nor desire. Yes, that old statement of who and whom.They were Doctors and lawyers nurses and gentry of the highest quality all with too much time merely to have sex they needed to go farther to achieve what they wanted. So, they sought out Gregorian as I did. Through invitation and meetings in coffee shops the lifestyle spoken in terms that would hide the very nature of it. Gregorian would grill prospective charges for his house. Once deemed suitable the charge would be invited for a Friday night.

The appointed time was not to be played with many a charge would stand on the corner for hours never to see Gregorian or his house. Once you arrived one of Gregorian’s trusted came out of the shadows and bade you to follow you were instructed not to ask nor question just follow.

Walking along a street you would grace in the daytime and as your eyes darted back and forth for fear of being mugged the trusted would turn quickly in to an unseen doorway if you were not watching them you would miss the move almost as if they counted their steps. Then under a dime light it did appear a large heavy metal green Door.
CLoud

The noise of a wall falling

2010-03-18T08:23:00.000-04:00

I have awoken from a self-imposed sleep to find dust and rubble. Nine years of dust and rubble. Wiping my eyes to clear my vision to clear my vision there is still dust and rubble where once stood Pillars and walls of the lifestyle. What caused this? A poor foundation? Perhaps the maintenance was not as actively pursued? All I see is two that survived both sad both cannot console the other nor themselves and we are all at a lost.

When I first entere the private chat room we used to talk like this. We describe both action and emotions. Sadly this was in a time of my youth when things did not change as quickly there was always a warning before and a long time till it was over. I know things must change I just do not accept it as easily and I feel it moves too quickly. Before I go back into my sleep once again, hoping the world will be here when I wake I can only say to the survivors that I wish them both luck in their separate Journeys.

Cloud lies down and turns his head to face the darkness closing his eyes he drifts back into his dreams once again.

Sort of a decision

2010-01-12T08:12:00.001-05:00

Well the eleventh has past and it is time to make a decision of some sort, The question being what am I a Dominant, a Switch or a slave. I have through out my like gone between the three as my fantasies go so do I. I would have to say that as a pure dominant I am not happy I never feel satisfied. Perhaps because of my limited time and circumstances I cannot enjoy the full services of a slave, As a switch I satisfied both sides of my desires and could play a lot there was always one side or the other waiting to have some fun but again no great commitment which I feel took away a lot from the times I spent in both roles.

The slave side of me has always been more foninant then the others. I would go into the other roles when bored or between dominants. Using other to perfect what I thought would be a perfect dominant. I have found out that the mean nasty and uncaring dominant just might not be the one I am after, Mentoring has been great and I will continue for not only does it help other become better at what they like it has pointed me in a new direction. That maybe a polite respectful person might make the perfect dominant for me.

So the decision besides the commitments I have made I will shrink away from my cloud profile answering emails once a week and not posting to the Stable or other of the Cloud blogs for the next two months and see if I can last or not as a slave.

2009-12-31T15:58:00.001-05:00

The ghosts of three have visited and no difference was made.

One expects fanfare or at least trumpets but none have occurred Perhaps with failing vision the apparitions did not carry the desired affect but my feelings lie unchanged. I have re-visited the past been in the present and have seen events that might be yet do not have to be.

SO to say I no longer seek those with desires of submission would be a death knoll for a Dominant it simple means I am tired of the work to satisfy them with their needs. I wish to sit back now and see the light of the sunset and not worry of the mornings’ light.

This blog was suppose to stimulate conversation amongst some of my friends and to give points of view to others that dropped in to read/ I seem to be a singular voice not that interesting for me. So the Stable will be quiet for awhile at least until the spirits stir me back to live. Mentoring I will always do for those that show promise but I do not think my views need to be spewed out to an empty room.

So a happy New Year to you all and like 2009 I will quietly withdraw leaving this blog like the dinosaurs perhaps to be found or forgotten.

A Proper Punishment

2009-12-22T14:51:00.002-05:00

Reverence and Salutations to all,

well lately one of my subs has been experiencing trouble drawing the line between the two aspects of our relationships, these were always clear it seems to me, but she pushed it to a level that demanded a quick and decisive answer.

She has been in contact with Master CLoud since before i met her, her own journey into the Lifestyle having started before mine, and since had become one of my Own. ..but somehow the realities of the world had forced my to curbs some of our experiences to a minimum and thus she forgot that Patience and Respect are cornerstones of what I wished her to learn.

An e-mail sent to Master CLoud and I proved I had to act swiftly. A stern e-mail got her to apologize properly but that wasn't the end of it...I gave her strict instructions and setup a Punishment session... she was to wait naked with candle lights at a given date and had no tv or music for a week while she thought about her actions and what was coming.

As i came into the room she was respectfully sitting with her head down and answered my questions properly... it was important to me that she understood the reason why.

I tied her down to the table, arms and legs spread open and used several flogger, horse whip and even my hand on her entire body, even broke a nice hairbrush i had due to the force applied.

I let her weep and cry, stopping to let the pain spread and do it's deed, then started again.... and again... and again....

After the right amount of time had passed, i untied her and led her to the couch while i pakced the instruments i had used. Aftercare came and took several hours.

But the lesson was learned. She is the sub, I am the Dom. Respect and Patience, always.

Punishment lovely idea

2009-12-03T11:54:00.001-05:00

Punishment in my mind should not fit the crime but instead exceed it. There should be no question in a persons mind that it is more painful to error then to tow the line.

I either pick out the part of the body they least wanted touched by punishment and concentrate my efforts there. Or I use extreme force and toy on their favourite area such as their ass, using what we have all seen a Singapore cane. IT is about four and a half feet long the good one are out of rattan I use one of bamboo. It is delivered to the buttocks and thighs leaving the slave lovely marks that stay for days Delivered with both hands one must be sure of the landing of the instrument but has turned some pain sluts into tears in as little as three strokes minion found this to be of great help to her as once introduced to it never had to be taken to task for a recurring similar infraction as every time she did sit the next week she would have cause to remember what she had done wrong sort of a gift that keeps on giving. The ass must be secured for this unless they are very good at standing still no wiggle can occur so the legs just below the ass are strapped in as well as the waist then the strokes lets five are delivered over the next while making sure to take at least thirty seconds between stroke to help the punisher to re-gain their strength and composure for the next stroke.

I used this method for the weekly punishment session that I have with slaves who are usually happy when the week is over and I tell them it was a good week no punishment is needed. Not speaking of the minor offences that are taken care of immediately during the course of the week.

Ah the joy of training a slave what fun!

Separation, Protocols, and Responsibilities

2009-12-01T10:07:00.004-05:00

Separation of church and state. Legal separation. Separation from loved ones. Separation of love and sex. Separation of play-time and real life.

Separation of what I know I should do and what I want to do.

Separation of "sub"-status and "girlfriend" status.

Separation of "friend" status and "pet" status.

I have crossed a good many lines of separation in my time. Some of them have been clear lines, some less so. Since I am fairly new to BDSM, I tend to be impatient with protocols, especially when I don't feel a particular protocol applies to me. Being a very opinionated woman, if I think a protocol doesn't apply to me in a particular case, I tend to just ignore it altogether.

Whoops - I did it again.

Ignored not only protocols, but good sense as well.

I often wonder if the average person wages the daily battles I do with myself. I know several people who seem to run smoothly through the course of their days. The alarm goes off, they get up. They get ready for work, automatically, seamlessly. They shower, they dress, they get going.

Not so with me. The alarm goes off, my mind starts screaming "NO! I'm NOT going in today!"

And it's pretty much downhill from there.

In BDSM, I have the same difficulty with obedience, and with patience. Waiting till my Lord is ready in particular. Maintaining protocols with Doms, even when not in a M/s relationship with my own Lord, much less the other Dom.

See, my Lord and I only play occasionally - so therefore my mind screams at me that all these "protocols" do not apply to me. That unless I am specifically involved in playtime, for which my Lord has specific words to begin and end a session, I am free to do and speak as I please. Even when speaking to my Lord, even when addressing other Doms.

Well now, there seems to be a difference of opinion on that subject!

(As Homer Simpson says: "D'oh!")

It seems that Doms like to be accorded respect all the time, not just within playtime, not just within BDSM situations.

Well then, I'm guilty of not doing that. I'm guilty of not respecting protocols, too. I'm guilty of being impatient with my Lord.

I did not see the line. The boundary line.

My Lord specifically told me to wait for him to do something, and I went around him.

Trouble was, we were not in playtime when he told me. It was sort-of implied. In the black-and-white world of Doms, I erred on the wrong side. In a more lenient world, I was a little pushy. But the fact remains that my Lord/boyfriend asked me to wait, and I pushed.

Uh-oh. Bad idea.

I don't think I'm getting off the hook this time, but it does bring up a topic that I've heard discussed from time to time, and I would love some clarity on this issue.

I am under the impression, you see, that Doms have some kind of responsibility toward their subs.

I've been told that things have to be negotiated ahead of time in a M/s relationship, and between Doms and subs. It's been made clear to me during group gatherings how I am to behave. I've been shown in lessons how other Doms and subs make arrangements. For example, when silence has been ordered, if the sub is feeling in danger, she (or he) is permitted to open and close a hand, a flashing signal to the Dom that there is trouble he (or she) needs to know about.

It was made equally clear to me, about that particular situation, that it was the Dom's responsibility to check his sub from time to time, to see if the hand was flashing!

I've been told that some slaves are ordered to be home, ready to hear from their master, at a specific time each day, or for a specific number of hours.

But the inference has been that the Dom will be on the other end of the phone or internet connection. Unless agreed to in advance, spelled out clearly, so that both parties know exactly what they are supposed to be doing.

I have never disobeyed my Lord. I have occasionally done things that weren't what my boyfriend preferred. But we talk things out. We come to understandings.

Well, recently I was "pushy", and punishment has been recommended.

I'm going to say I probably deserve it, if only for the tone of my communication, which was decidedly closer to the "nagging wife" side of the scale than "sub".

But I need clarification, even though I'm NOT in a full-time M/s relationship, on what is generally agreed on that I'm permitted to expect from my Lord.

I have, in fact, been trying for some time to be dominated. Figuratively speaking, the hand has been flashing. Figuratively speaking, the arms have been waving wildly, I've been jumping up and down, whistling, shouting, doing anything I can to get someone, sometimes anyone, to dominate me!

I do, in fact, find it easier to get along in the world under my Lord's guidance. Now, he is a busy man. I know I can't expect his attention all the time.

But just how much time, or how much guidance, can be expected? Especially given the limitations of a "play-time only" type of relationship.

That is my question.

A question?

2009-11-26T10:17:00.000-05:00

A question?

Are slaves that when they have no dominants in their lives inflict forms of slavery upon themselves such as self-flagellation or self-bondage a way of expressing their desires and wants for enjoyment sake or statement of loneliness?

CLoud

What you want

2009-11-24T14:47:00.000-05:00

So I sat down and did a google search for ass rape and got this lovely scene of a cute slave tied in doggy style having her ass raped. Whimpering and tearful begging her Master to stop of course all set up before hand. Now the question is when some one comes to me and says I am yours do what you want to well then I will under the laws of the land. But what if the little slave girl wanted anal sex not a forceful pounding of her anus. Who would be in the wrong the Dom for not checking or the slave for not defining what she wanted. More then that when people do not think about hard limits in degree instead of likes and dislikes. Like I love anal sex a little rough but I want to be able to still retain ability to control my anus.

I need the whip is another good one most have never been hit seriously with a bull whip while I was tempted to let her have it I decided it would be more fun and last longer if I just flogged her turn out that is what she wanted/

Then a classic don’t hit me there or nor in the same place. A certain sub was complaining to her partner at the time that he was hitting the same spot all the time and even chained up convinced her partner to let me show him how to do it. So I did I hit her five times in the same spot the one he hit. He looked at me and said but it was the same spot and I said yes I do not listen to the words of slaves when they are tied up only their screams. The certain sub then said why do you Doms do that I got nice and close and said to her because it hurts and you want that and I love to see your body dance when it is in pain.

I guess what I am trying to say is having sore ass cheeks for a couple of days or a bruise or two is one thing having some thing that stops doing it’ job is another define what you want to feel and let the Dom get you there. Or buy a lot of diapers you might need them.

CLoud

Well this one was different

2009-11-19T08:31:00.000-05:00

A subject that I have an opinion so when asked a question I gladly respond until this one.

How long should I wait to sit on my slaves face after eating poutine? I do not feel this is an etiquette question as much a physical one. The oblivious one would be how soon do you have gas after eating poutine?

When I talk about etiquette it is about the normal vanilla etiquette or perhaps about the lifestyle but this one well it depends what you are into I guess any others have an opinion here?

Cloud

Transitioning

2009-11-18T23:46:00.004-05:00

Master Cloud has asked me to talk about my transition towards a slave mind. I'll do my best: but for starters, you must know that I am NOT a slave. Not yet, anyway.

I was brought up in a strict religious household, and while I was young I dutifully tried my best to believe the stuff I was taught. Some of that included that women were somehow less than men, that men were in charge, that I had to obey my husband. Nonsense like that.

My "programming" was very thorough, to the point where my mental health was affected. As I sought out help and treatment, I managed to find my way out of the fog of religious poppycock and began, finally, to think for myself.

So, out in the real world, I found myself becoming a very strong woman, and I am pleased to say that whatever my mistakes have been, they have been mistakes of action, as opposed to missed opportunities. Usually, anyway!

Yet, like many women, I found my sexual fantasies always included an element of violence, of physical restraint, of rape. (Let's be very clear on this - I mean "imagined rape". I am QUITE certain the real thing would be a horrible experience.)

For a long time I struggled with these fantasies. I would try to fantasize about other situations, because I felt guilty getting aroused by thoughts of being overpowered. In this day and age, I'd say, how can I find sexual satisfaction from such barbaric thoughts?

It took me many years to reach a point where I was ready to be introduced to the idea of BDSM. But once that door creaked open, I took to it like a duck to water. This was what I had been missing in my sexual relationships all my life.

I explored hastily, greedily, recklessly, heedlessly. I became addicted to email. I logged into "alt.com" and checked out my mail ten, twenty, fifty times a day. It was there that I first encountered Master CLoud - that was a good experience. But his caution went unheeded by me at first. I put his words of wisdom on the back burner and kept hunting, till I found my "wolf".

I am sad to have to admit that the night I went to meet my first "dom", I was reckless. Yes, two people knew where I was going, who I was with, and when I expected to be home... But in my heart, I knew that I was going to let this stranger do anything he wanted to me - even if I ended up dead in a ditch. I wanted this experience, even if it literally killed me.

Fortunately, I did not end up dead in a ditch that night! I was absolutely starved for a dominant male, and the male in question seemed to appreciate what I gave...

It was an extremely intense experience. He used no force, no ropes, no fear, to extract obedience. He had complete control of me the minute the door closed behind me, as if the "snick" of the lock on the door locked me in irons at the same time. Of course, I was giving my obedience, my will, my body. I was surrendering completely to this utter stranger. It was a foolish thing to do, but the memory is still very sweet to me. Even now that I've moved on, and I no longer associate with this man, I still sometimes play over in my mind how it was, how he was, how I was, when we were together.

It wasn't a good match at all, except sexually. Sexually, it felt to me that we fit like a glove. That we matched up perfectly. His voice was perfect to command me, I obeyed and responded...

From the point of view of the "real world", he's a jerk. I simply could not continue to be used by someone who did not have my best interests at heart. In other words, someone who was not "worthy" to be my dom.

I was still frantic at that stage. CLoud continued to write to me, I continued to ask questions, to hunt frantically. My marriage was falling apart - my husband had been trying to understand BDSM, had been trying to dom me - but he's even more submissive than I am, and it simply wasn't working out.

There were other problems in the marriage, but I only wish to discuss the BDSM aspects.

Finally I met Lord Dragonwood. Oddly enough, I did not meet him through a BDSM event. But we began to correspond, then we began to date. He had just discovered his dom tendencies - so we were both very "young" in that way. He had me answer questionnaires he had found in books and on the internet, in order to discover my limits. I didn't know I had any till he found them by asking all those questions!

We did not, we do not, always "play" when we are together, rather we became boyfriend and girlfriend and only "play" occasionally. So far.

But in a recent post I mentioned I had at last found a man that I might be able to obey.

Interesting, how this process seems to have taken me full circle - back to obeying my man! However, I see many differences. But sometimes I wonder who the BDSM dom was who invented marriage! Because it sure seems that all the traditional descriptions of wifely behaviour match those of a good sub!

Be that as it may, the title of this post is "Transitioning." I am becoming something, within this relationship to Lord Dragonwood. What that will eventually be is a mystery. I know CLoud would love to see me become a slave, and Lord Dragonwood thinks it might one day be possible.

We'll all just have to wait and see.

Doctor

2009-11-17T09:12:00.001-05:00

Doctor

Well I went off to my MD yesterday after more test last week expecting news f the most dire reality. Something like all the playing you have done has seriously damaged you will be in a wheel chair form now on type of reality. What I got was totally different:

Seems the lifestyle is good for neuropathy. I will explain. The nerve endings that are sending out wrong signals such as pain instead of just the pressure of touching something. Well when pressure is applied the endings get confused and send out nice feelings. So all those sessions where I worried about the damage that was being cause now turns out were helping the pain. Along with endorphin rush the nerve endings were confused. Not saying that the pain of a spanking and floggings did not hurt it was a good pain as far as my body’s health was concerned!

I have been going through a period where I thought the slave collar would have to be taken off and put away as another memory. It seems that it should be part of my treatment go figure. Now I have started back a Lyrca a wonderful drug that aids the annoyance of the neuropathy so in a few days I will back to my normal ways.
SO now the question will be whether my desire for slavery that has been building partly because I worried that physically I could no longer be a slave will force me to choose being a slave or remaining as a switch. The past few years as my desire to participate was diminished through worry about health. Tendons hurt and muscle spasms after sessions were from poor stretching and exercise in a few days when all the drugs kick in I will start a new regime of exercise and should be in tip top slave shape in a few weeks.

Now of course that brings up the subject of those that I made offers of amends to, and did not take me up at that time due to the health issues. But I will come to that bridge when I come to it right now it is getting into shape and making a decision on what I am.

Of course saying all this after I have made offers to make amends to so many dominants could now have consequences since before I quoted my health as a major reason I could not do what they wanted well now I do not seem to that as an excuse anymore!

Doctor

2009-11-17T09:12:00.000-05:00

About being Dominant

2009-11-06T21:30:00.003-05:00

Salutations and Reverence to all,

I wish to convey a small experience that happen to me recently and for that you must know more about me... I am poly-amorous and thus have many wonderful loves in my life. I'm also glad that some of them are wonderful subs and great loves.

I was recently at one of my loves in the USA which lives with her Husband, Secondary and her Husband slave.... Yes, Husband is also a Master who has a lived-in slave... wonderful girl who knows her place.

As I was there as a Friend and invitee i just decided to do some chores to keep my mind and body active.... Poor little slave was all confused... why should I, A Dom, A Friend to this Family do the Chores?!?!?!

My answer to her was simple: I am a Dom and I'll do whatever the fuck i want.

She was flabbergasted and her words were: Well... I have absolutely no answers to that one.

We all laughed.... I grinned.... Being a Dom is so much fun.

LDW

Fall used to mean burning leaves

2009-11-03T05:10:00.000-05:00

I have noticed a great deal of vanilla on what were BDSM blogs recently. In the past around holiday time it almost seemed as inevitable that a post or two have the season influences in them. Luckily in the past they were only one or two and then the lifestyle would show up in a related story of some one trusted up as a turkey or other centre piece. I touch based with a lot of blogs now and then so I went to check today on how lifestyle they are doing!

Sadly I would say the well is running dry I think as far as lifestyle information, new thing stried even new twist on things already tried or experiences re-visited. I set a google alert to see what was new and disappointment seemed to be the norm. I was directed to everything that might of one time had a hint of the lifestyle in it to porn sites which list every fetish so you are dumped there. Nothing thought provoking very little I feel that had thought just some one has a blog and feels the need to write but have long since left their ideals behind or at least the reason for their blogs.

Is there only some much one can say on the lifestyle? Only so many tales one can recant? I was feeling that way until a new friend from the states contacted me. He spoke of hair singeing! As a young man I would sit in the barbershop and watch now unlike today where men get perms, dye their hair or have highlights in those day men did not have much done to their hair except cut there was singeing where the barber would use what looked like a candle to burn off fine hairs. The process was a bit painful and there was the slight aroma of burnt flesh and hair. So my friend told me of a slave boy he had that he would regularly burn off his body and pubic hair with a candle. He love watching the man’s facial expressions as the flame caught a hair and like a fuse take off till it was extinguished by the skins tight grip on the hair. He did say you had to be carefully as lightening too many at a time could cause burns especial if the hair was long. He also sent me a lovely description of a a fantasy he had of a camp fire and slaves tied close to it causing the same effect but increasing the unknown part as no onw would know exactly when a hair would catch of course there would be the lovely aroma of burnt hair and just the idea of outdoor play at this time of the year was so amusing so some thing new to search out and see how far this type of play has gone. Off course that opened up a whole new interested for me including exciting an old interest of branding which should occupy my time for a while.

CLoud

2009-10-23T14:15:00.001-04:00

Assumptions.

Are they not lovely things? One can take a few words or phrases and interrupted what you want what you are all about. Such an occurrence just happened tp the questions and me were simple yet for some reason I was interrupted as a vile and evil man.

I asked of the women since she describes her self as BBw if she was happy with her body? I asked what she meant by the term slave? Did she have any hard limits? And I told her not to call me Master.

All I can say is that some one did not read my questions but instead assumed the true motives in my questions were to cover her in scat and give her to some boys soccer team. Now any one who reads my profile know my hard limits include shit and children as well as a few others.

First I wonder why I should make profiles the do not read them they take one line or word and interrupt it perhaps I should just post a pic and have them make up my profile. As for evil yes many have describe as evil but usually with a twinkle in their eye or a smile on their face to me that means a good thing especially in this lifestyle.

CLoud

A small box with locked memories

2009-10-17T16:04:00.000-04:00

A box, simple in nature made of metal and was given to me by a former slave. While transforming my den once again I found it, empty as when given yet a smile formed and I enjoyed a few seconds of reliving pleasure I had from her service Amanda captured my mind with her at time brattish behaviour a slave that had to always be taking down a peg or too and she so enjoyed the attention. My mind drifted then to minion and her absolute horror of breaking any of my rules her need to please and be good was extraordinary except when she perceived any form of insult directed towards me then the teeth and claws came out and pity the dominant or slave that made the remark. Sadly they both needed more from then I could and can offer.

I am married to a wonderful woman that is my perfect match but for her dislike of violence / She asked only three things of me knowing that I was playing not to bring anything home, not to tell her specifics and not to stop loving her even if I left. Now I know some do not understand my code of honour or why I should not just leave as they offered more then my wife does/ Easy I made a vow for better or worse the other part of it I love her and that means to me protecting her that I can only do being with her. So when I say it is important that my slaves are as honest as I am with then that they hold no expectation of vanilla love nor hold any thought that they would be more then the strictest definition of a slave and their lot in life. Offer no more and no less the and evil minded giver of sweet tortures given in the spirit of heightening the experience of their fantasies. I have been offered it all 24/7 gifts and property and have refuse them for the one reason that I was honest and truthful to every slave I am every had.

I know have a males slave and I am training tow Dominants I am thinking ,as the renovations and dungeon building has gone south with the economy, that I might make a few toys so I have redone my den to incorporate a wall of swords ,a small work area and my office I guess I shoule work for Ikea as I seem to fit a lot of things into small areas, hmmm now there is a joke some where in there I think.

At this point of my life I have great memories Joanna gave me my start as my first slave, Amanda gave me her spirit and I loved taming it. minion gave me her heart, her total devotion and in some ways her protection and peace of mind. I would have to say that minion and amanda got by my ice armour to capture part of my heart. I was sad to see them go. Along with the others all contributed to an interesting forty years in the lifestyle sadly I was never able to give them all what they needed I just hope they carry good memories from their experiences with me.

My point is honest and honour are the right ways to go just sometimes it is a bitter pill.

In response to "Thoughts"

2009-10-12T13:14:00.003-04:00

Master CLoud, you have stirred up so many ideas in response to your thoughts.

I was raised by my grandparents. Thus, I was, and am still, often more at home in GK Chesterton's England than in Canada of today.

In "The Scarlet Pimpernel", when Margueurite says to Sir Percy, "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, Sir Percy!" he replies, slowly, carefully, never taking his eyes off her, "This beholder... is enchanted." And I could faint with joy and arousal! I too wish that conversation could be slower, more thoughtful.

I love letters - though I am as guilty as any these days of using email instead, or of telephoning... I wouldn't want to be without these modern conveniences - and perhaps there lies the truth we have lost in this day and age - that they are conveniences.

It is decidedly more convenient to call or email than to write a letter. Finding adequate paper for instance, rather than a stack of post-it notes. And a pen that works, never mind one which enhances penmanship or is a pleasure to hold in the hand. And lord help us when we have to find stamps! It can take months for a letter to finally leave my home!

But I remember my grandparents opening their letters. In the rush to share the news, they would read it aloud to each other first. Then they would each take turns reading it silently, passing it back and forth, reading each other small excerpts, commenting... A long letter could take an entire day to be thus read fully. It sparked conversation for months. And when I do finally take pen to paper these days, I can picture the receiver's reactions... Hear them read it aloud to their spouse, hear the laughter and the conversation it will spark. Yet, sadly, I do not write letters often enough.

Yes, convenience does seem to have become a way of life for us, even in the lifestyle.

This weekend began for me when my Lord arrived to visit with me. He had given me verbal instructions over a bad cell phone connection earlier in the day: I was to be ready for him, naked and waiting in the living room, with candles lit. He was going to give me a warning call when he left his home (yes, he is a generous Lord!).

As an addicted procrastinator, these instructions immediately sent my stomach to a black hole: the apartment wasn't clean enough, I hadn't picked up all the groceries I'd need yet, I had to prepare my body for him, and worse - I wasn't AT home, I was out! My heart was thumping for two hours, dreading that phone call! I made it - with Lady Luck on my side.

I was determined not to be frazzled and panicked when my Lord arrived, so I took a deep breath when I got home and thought carefully about in what order to do the necessary work. First I prepared the living room, set out the candles, then did a quick cleaning of the other rooms, then prepared myself...

When at last I knew the stage was set, I stopped working and began sipping water, deciding to sit quietly, to that when he arrived I would be rested and hydrated. The call came, I lit the candles, and stayed rested and focused till I heard his key turn in the upstairs lock, and which point I knelt, ready for examination.

It was AGONY waiting for him to come in. He is a meticulous man, and he placed all his weekend gear methodically before approaching me. We do not usually begin our time together with a session, this was a first for me in this relationship. He walked silently around me, checking to be sure I was completely naked. I had thought of this and remembered to remove earrings and jewellery.

It felt so MENACING! I hadn't ever before been afraid I would make a mistake, but through the whole session I was on my proverbial toes!

I talk about this session in response to your comments about "peacock doms". My Lord is no peacock. In fact, we laugh about how "vanilla" both of us appear to other members of the bdsm community, and to the polyamorous community. My Lord feels that sometimes these lifestylers don't take him seriously precisely because he doesn't display his leanings. He looks the part of the well-dressed businessman.

And while I am perhaps a bit too free and easy in what information I share, and I try to look attractive, I am quite modest in what I keep covered when out in the world. Most women show more leg and more cleavage than I do and they seem quite comfortable with it. Sure, I'm also an exhibitionist - but not in the vanilla landscape.

As a point of interest, my Lord told me after our session that he came very close to giving me a serious test to pass. He had stood at the doorway and considered ringing my doorbell, if need be, several times.

I would have failed the test. He had ordered me to wait - in the living room. Had I gone and opened the door, he would not have been pleased. I am very thankful that he decided to take a smaller step with me that day!

My Lord is a very careful, deliberate man, something I adore in him. While I am not his slave, I find I yearn to be just that. Perhaps one day I will be ready.

As you know, I am still very young and have much to learn. As you also know, I don't give my consent to much in the vanilla world and hold very strong opinions on a number of topics! But I do feel that I have now met a man who it would be possible for me to obey.

And that's a BIG step.

A thought

2009-10-12T06:35:00.001-04:00

Of Pride and Prejudice.

IF any one to say they know me then they would have the understanding that I love old English plays/ I regularly (not as often as I would like to) go to the Shakespeare festival and the Shaw festival, I love the plays such as the ideal husband and pride and prejudice and watch them with a passion when on Television.

One of the reasons I have stopped using messenger and refuse to be a Twitter. I enjoy the letter writing of the plays and of those days, the joy they show at the reception of a letter how they must sit and read with out interruption the contents. Not once do they read but more a few to extract every thought conveyed by the words. Top hats and canes a certain politeness-permeated society. The letter was key to this I feel as it allowed thought to be expressed and transmitted not just reactive conversation but clear understanding through study and interpretation. If you received a letter it was treated as a treasure informing you of events, thoughts, feelings. It conveyed or transported the writer of the letter and their ideals to be in your presence and you read and studied every word and phrase. Then after thought you replied with the expressions of emotions that had been stirred by the content of the letter.

Now we must dash off an email send a text or twit. Knowledge of every little event must be known to the list of friends in seconds so they can dash off a hasty reply before anyone else on the list of recipients. I find in this little depth of thought. Heaven forbid that we take time to think no we must send within seconds or we are a bad friend for not dropping everything a nd quickly come up with the perfect response in seconds to a request.

I think it falls back to one thing Protocols and how much should you expose of your self to friends or the public. Yes I know a lifestyle based on slavery as a sexuality there is going to be a lot of exposure I mean perhaps the allure for me was and still is in the closet. The idea of taking a successful elegant woman and stripping her down to a naked slave for me is a thought carried great strength for me! Just as having a weak character throw themselves at me saying I will do anything just take care of me take all control for me does not intrigue me as much. I enjoyed the days of hanky codes and the people that possessed the strength to go to a club with a hanky describing their desires through the colour and placement of a hankie is far more inviting to me then those that use the lifestyle as a fashion statement or trend of the in crowd. I feel the strength of the lifestyle and of the people in it has been water down by the lack of protocols and how fast things happen with out thought behind them.

I was one that at first was happy for great acceptability and openness of the new order but now after I have seen what it has produces I would have to say that I am saddened by it and think the strength and vitality of the community lay in the clandestine and secretive nature it once had. The allure and excitement of it was caused by the strength of the people in it and how hard it was to participate in this form of extremes and sexuality. It is why I do not attend a lot of events nor private parties and tend to be most comfortable in communication with more extreme players as they tend to keep more to themselves as they are still sort of shunned by the fashion lifestylers who wear their desires rather than experience them.

I will not chastise them for doing their little dress up, that is their kink it the just does not hold an allure for me. If a dominant must perform and dress like peacock for the crown some thing is wrong is that not making the dominant a slave to the crowds? The definition of a slave for me always starts with the word “naked” so having one dressed to please their vanity does not sit well with me slaves do not have vanity or are at least not allowed it in my idea of a slave.

I guess I am just getting old it is that time of year where thought journeys more to the past then thoughts of the future and memories of the strong characters that I have had the pleasure of enslaving. So in the sprit of Thanksgiving a note of thanks to those that wore my collar. To those dominants I call friend as we share the same ideals thank you for your strength and commitment to ideals.

A thought

2009-10-12T06:35:00.000-04:00

Of Pride and Prejudice.

IF any one to say they know me then they would have the understanding that I love old English plays/ I regularly (not as often as I would like to) go to the Shakespeare festival and the Shaw festival, I love the plays such as the ideal husband and pride and prejudice and watch them with a passion when on Television.

One of the reasons I have stopped using messenger and refuse to be a Twitter. I enjoy the letter writing of the plays and of those days/ Top hats and canes a certain politeness permeated society. The letter was key to this I feel as it allowed thought to be expressed and transmitted not just reactive conversation. If you received a letter it was treated as a treasure informing you of events, thought feelings it conveyed or transported the writer of the letter and their ideals to be in your presence and you read and studied every word and phrase. Then after thought you replied with the expressions of emotions that had been stirred by the content of the letter.

Now we must dash off an email send a text or twit. Knowledge of every little event must be known to the list of friends in seconds so they can dash off a hasty reply before anyone else on the list of recipients.. Heaven forbid that we take time to think no we must send within seconds or we are a bad friend for not dropping everything a nd quickly come up with the perfect response in seconds to a request.

I think it falls back to one thing Protocols and how much should you espouse of your self. Yes I know a lifestyle based on slavery as asexuality there is going to be a lot of exposure I mean perhaps the allure for me was and still is in the closet. The idea of taking a successful elegant woman and stripping her down to a naked slave for you is a thought with great strength for me having a weak character saying I will do anything just take care of me take all control for me does not intrigue me as much. I enjoued the days of hanky codes and the people that possessed the strength to go to a club with a hanky describing their desires through the colour and placement of a hankie is far more inviting to me then those that use the lifestyle as a fashion statement or trend of the in crowd. I feel the strength of the lifestyle and of the people in it has been water down by the lack of protocols and how fast things happen with out thought behind them.

I was one that at first was happy for great acceptability and openness of the new order but now after I have seem what it has produces I would have to say that I am saddened by it and think the strength and vitality of the community lay in the clandestine and secretive nature it once had. The allure and excitement of it was caused by the strength of the people in it and hard it was to participate in this form of extremes and sexuality. It is why I do not attend a lot of events nor private parties and tend to be most comfortable communication with more extreme players as they tend to keep more to themselves as they are still sort of shunned by the fashion lifestylers who wear their desires rather than experience them.

I will not chastise them for doing so that is their kink it the just does not hold an allure for me. If a dominant must perform and dress for the crown some thing is wrong is that not making the dominant a slave to the crowds? The definition of a slave for me always starts with naked so having one dressed t please their vanity does not sit well with me slaves not have vanity or are at least not allowed it in my idea of a slave.

I guess I am just getting old it is that time of year where thought journeys more to the past the thoughts of the future and memories of the strong characters that I have had the pleasure of enslaving. So in the sprit of Thanksgiving a note of thanks to those that wore my collar. To those dominant I call friend as we share the same ideals thank you for your strength and commitment to ideals.

Beginnings

2009-10-02T08:02:00.004-04:00

Salutation and Reverence to all,

I am Lord DragonWood and I've been invited by Sir CLoud to post here.

I am new to the Lifestyle, as of two year's ago, and i hope that my experiences will help guide others. Unfortunately, several delays and issues have limited my interaction in the local scene but i hope to remedy this shortly. I am definitely a DOM and currently have two subs under my care that play with me whenever i want, one locally and one in the USA.

New blood you could say

2009-10-02T07:51:00.000-04:00

Soon a couple of friends of mine will be contributing their thoughts and views on the lifestyle. I hope it stimulates conversation and new ideas.

They are Lord Dragonwood and his slave. I have known deb the longest she has gone from an arrogant at times bottom to a cordial slave under the tutelage of Lord Dragonwood I look forward to hear her views on this and the methods that Dragonwood used to get her there.

Welcome my friends.

CLoud

Knowledge

2009-10-01T10:43:00.000-04:00

Funny in the lifestyle there is the Dominant hidden and mysterious and then there is supposed to be the totally open and exposed slave. They are not suppose to hide their feelings or health from their dominant. Honesty is not quite the same as you can be blatancy honest with out reveal much about your self you just have to answer the question in the right way. I have always aloud questions from my slaves yet never volunteer any information except the obvious.

This works well for me as I find those that know too much complicate simple things. So best for me to be dark and mysterious and the slaves to be an open book as in the past after all they have right to my honesty and my ability to communicate what I can do for them and what need to do for me. They get their tasks and protocols what more does a slave need? Oh some will say they need love but the word love cannot be interpreted as the vanilla love can it. It is not chocolate on Valentines Day it is a good whipping thorns instead of flowers and treating them in the way of their desires not the book form of love for me anyway. A friend Sir always says it was a conflict for him to beat a woman as he was and so was I taught you do not use force on those weaker then yourself ”You do not hit a woman”. Perhaps ion 24/7 love should and does occur but certainly it is unwise in the situation I am in love and too much information on my self I find weakens the role and destroys the relation between Dominant and slave.

CLoud

titles

2009-09-26T19:20:00.001-04:00

Is it only in the English language that we take words with perfect meanings and trans mute them into pale images of what they once were? So Master is a high title that gives those in the bdsm world some significance. How can you be a master when you have mastered nothing? They have not spent and eternity studying they have not taken a vanilla and mastered them so that they become the slave. The slave if taken that way would be non consensual and the master a monster by today’s standards.

The slave is not coerced nor forced they give of themselves freely there is no mastering. So why do they call themselves masters? Lack of a better word perhaps fear they will not be seen as they wish to perhaps it is to give a better feeling to their slaves master just does not seem right at least to take by yourself I can accept it if the slave gives it to me says you have master me but to use such titles for my own ego I wonder why you would need it.

The answer for a singular voice

2009-09-21T16:48:00.000-04:00

Some one has complained tht I moderate comment and on this blog I have in the past but it seems it crimps some one’s need that I allow comments to be immediately seen. Well then I give all a chance to comment on blogs younger then 14 days that means that if you want not to be moderated make your comment with in fourteen days of my posting as the other others seem to have disappeared from active writing.

SO now for that voice that wishes so desperately to heard you have a window of opportunity. I will still only return the comment why I have time to think on what you said.

Enjoy. Oh a ps I have only deleted one comment that was a spam wanting to know if you would like to fiend and oriental wife hmmm well just in case you do drop me a line I am sure I can find it some where. Oh I deleted one of my blogs also but never a post or serious of posts so both bad and crazy posts are available for all to read no matter if I like them or not.

comments

2009-09-18T09:07:00.000-04:00

I did not know that comment areas were only meant for when you agree with the blogger’s view. Silly me, but not the first time. I remember tell a Pro Domme that she sound like a wining brat because she was upset that a sub dare contact her and not book an appointment. When I commented on her blog that the reason he did not book was that he was looking for a dominant not a whining brat she for some reason deleted my comment. I found her a bit preachy for the role of a dominant some one who talked a lot but said little.

I have a bit of an understanding on preaching. In my catholic up bringing I was destined for the priest hood. For the first part of my teenage life I was preached to. So I can tell most of the time when there is a preacher around. I find preachers are scared of discussion and most of the time will blame an opposing view on not having faith. It would seem to me that it is their faith in the words they spew out is where the lack of faith exists. Now I could confront them or bask them directly in a blog or emails but that goes against what I believe. Everyone has the right to do what he or she want as long as it does not affect others. So if you are here for ideas or wish to have dialogue great if you think this blog is the only idea or way of the lifestyle that my thoughts ae the only right one well you are ass. This is good for me not everyone you have to be an adult and choose what you like and discard the rest.

That said leave a comment whether you like what I say or want to argue I moderate comments not to eliminate comments opposite to my thinking but just to make sure there are no spammers. Unlike others that refrain from publishing or delete comments I enjoy others opinion even when they do not match mine.

Words!

2009-09-13T11:23:00.001-04:00

N a lifestyle with out written rules or protocols it can be hard to understand what you are supposed to do through the use of words. A dismal way for some as the lifestyle no only perverts everyday things such as wooden spoons we also pervert the vanilla language to suit out purpose. Woe to the novice that cannot interpret what we say as miss-understanding general occurs. Certain words just pop out as dual meanings. The whip is a long device the flogger some what different you do not whip some one with a flogger more flog with a whip. You can see the difference and usually most will understand right away. When I spoke to a sub and she requested the whip her exactly words were master I need the whip. Well she wanted a spanking she ran like hell when I took out the whip. You can get a good whipping with out a whip but you never beat some one with a whip you whip them it is an art form. Another time a young lady was tell me of her hard limits she said I do not play with shit I said OH scat and she started to leave/ I was trying to be informative she took it as the vanilla word states.

This is sort of different sex what is sex in a bdsm relation, when in vanilla life I make lover to a person and the sex act is only a part of it. I make love to their minds their souls I want every part of them to experience orgasm. I never fuck my lovers I make love. Slaves I use sex as another way of degrading them. When you have a cock in your ass there is not other word you should use then you are fucked/ Taking that cock out and shoving it in their mouth means I am degrading you I am reaching for your enjoyment of being humiliated and forcing you to ask me to continue. So as an answer to my friend tha asked about this well best talk this over with your slave or master as to what constitutes sex and can you have a form of sex with others that does not constitute betrayal or cheating.

SO advise those that know do not think it is clear to everyone I just learnt the term predicament bondage is an offshoot of bondage and here I thought it was normal bondage. Novice open up your eyes a bit every word can have two meaning or three or four remember this lifestyle had to hide itself with hankies codes and words for years to pass undetected it is an old habit is not easily broken.

The one rule I set as golden if the student has not learned the teacher has not taught in other words if you are senior in the lifestyle then it is you fault if the novice does not understand best form of teaching to use listen and talking/ One more catch phrase no question is stupid only answers that are not understood are.

CLoud

Look who is begging at my door

2009-09-11T09:41:00.001-04:00

Well bob has come back begging to be given another chance. I have sent out what I need from him and now it is up to him to prove himself to me. Yes I know why take him back Most would not.

It is my feeling that slaves will always make mistakes some times those mistakes will harm the dominant’shonour or feelings toward the slave, I am just one of those dominants that can forgive poor behaviour and errors by slaves as long as they pay for their mistakes. I do believe that punishment is a need of every slave. Some times their perception of hard limits and humiliation are tainted by vanilla standards. Thoughts of freedom or getting what they want is too important to them and if things do not go their way their fantasy they stand up and say no. In the strongest fashion yet regret their words almost immediately.

I do think there is times you should never take a slave back but not this time. When a slave leaves a master many times it is because of communications. Some thing triggers the vanilla side of respect and they stand up and say no more. Then realizing they have failed in their slavery they are full of remorse for that failure that they willing give up the hard limits that restricted their service. They fully give control over to the master thus re-gaining their composure and fully give over control to another, which is what bob has done.

The price he will pay will be that his punishment will be before others. That is for dishonouring me he did not ask for release but instead told me no way would he continue. He will get a total of seventy-five strokes unless he errors this week then it will be more. Fifty will be delivered to his ass fifteen to his inner thighs a weak spot for bob and ten to his precious little penis and balls just so he knows who owns them.

Then I will decide if he will be used only as a training tool or as my personal slave. My belief is that there is no such a thing as a trained slave they need the attention, constant supervision and punishment as well as play sessions. Intense some times, draining on the energy of the dominant yes but that is why I am here to control and give the sweet evil torture of pain that they crave, to allow then to serve without their knowledge as to how.

Boggles the mind when you think about things

2009-09-02T10:02:00.000-04:00

I train dominants with idea of what my slave side wants a dominant to be. I have been mindful of this but wonder if it can ever be separated. When in dominant role I am told I am strict, evil and nasty. I do not hold with mistakes and punish at the slightest provocation. This of course is how I feel I need to be treated as a slave.

I enjoy being the centre of attention. SO having some one constantly watching to make sure I am behaving is certainly a big part of my slavery. Could be why one of the few role playing I really get into is teacher student. I enjoy CFmn a great deal is I see it also relates to my need for attention as being the only one naked in a room with every one else dressed does sort of make you a focal point. That old nightmare of being naked in school or at work is a dream not a nightmare for me. In this manner there is no mistaken who is the slave. Humiliation play that I inflict especially with male slaves a way of putting myself further above the slave by it’s degrading nature. Equally, when done to me puts me wishing to be the lowest from of slave I can. Humiliation of my male equipment could be compensation for my small penis. A man well hung would enjoy attention due to size not quite the same kind of attention but it is attention.

All aspects of what I show dominants in training from rimming to feet licking all protocols to cp have to do with what I want as a slave. Humiliation robs me of my mental strength, it strips me of my respect and the bondage, ass play and corporal punishment takes away from my physical side.

Two of my strongest fantasies are to be the victim of a slave revolt where some of my former slaves decide to teach me a lesson by switching roles. All that I had done to them comes back to haunt me as their slave. The other is that the dominants that I have trained find out my desire to slave for them and they, at a gathering break me through the ranks. Stripped and marked as a traitor to the cause forced to slave for the group for the rest of my existence. Various variations of this play regularly through my mind.

Since there is no set way nor rules written in stone for the training of a dominant as there is non for the lifestyle, I am not breaking with protocols. Since I training in Dominant mode it is not topping from the bottom but is it a consensual thing am I forcing my views in the hope gaining what I want not their desires. That I find one dominant that lives up to my standards and surpassed them. Is there a dominant that will wish to step out of my shadow by forcing me into theirs, through my submission to them. Perhaps one of my ex-slaves would enjoy watching my humiliation as their spit washes the respect away they once gave to me.

SO if this is really what I want to be a slave to the perfect dominant in my mind then is it time to put away my dominant toys and guise and choose the side that seems to pervade my thoughts constantly.

Boggles the mind when a switch starts to wonder about choosing sides!

CLoud

Oh no it is a switch

2009-09-02T07:45:00.001-04:00

It is funny in a lifestyle such as this that we can accept many different kinks except those that switch. Ones tht enjoy both sides of the whip you could say. I have heard when Doming that I am not a true dominant, I have been called a undecided, incomplete A want to be and of course not a real lifestylers. I have experienced perplexing questions such being asked by a slave how could I enjoy being a slave. Which is a question that makes me think about some one’s interest in the lifestyle. If a slave cannot understand the enjoyment of slavery then why is he here?

So in the future let it be known tht I am a switch and my reasons for switching are tht I like it and tht is how I was trained. If you cannot accept that move along and find your self a real dominant that does not know why you enjoy things as they have never tasted the whip or liked a shoe

A rant

2009-08-24T22:56:00.001-04:00

It is funny that my name has things in it that either obscure vision or hides the features of what is seen. Like dust or cobwebs on old books disturb only so often for a tad of information. They fog the vision and make it hard to read.

Protocols are meant to to be easy to understand to provide clarity and the proper way to act in a situation for a slave and dominant. Sadly there is not a book of protocols as many as I have said before. IN a lifestyle that preaches on rules and regulations we have no real shared and accepted by all as the base for any lifestyle relation. Funny is it not! I would gues the lifestyle should not even carry that title, as there is nothing shared no rules, no set way of domining. We do not wear the same clothing. What makes this a lifestyle?

I have looked in all those dust, the books on my shelf and do not see an answer. Worse I see in the lifestyle those I wish not to associate with yet I am associated with them as we have similar enjoyments just they took it past consensual. I see those that in vanilla life are so miss-match as the slave intelligence and stature in vanilla life far exceeds their master’s achievements yet they kneel in respect to one that would not be given second thought. There eis no quality control as there is no school for dominants nor are they required to pass a test, they do not even have to taste how it is to be on the other side of the stick. They merely have to create a name that has master in it and looks dominant. Imagine if you could do that in medicine. Doctor Darklight hmmm now knowing that would you let me operate? We do though so really is it a lifestyle or vultures hovering over head of those that seek but cannot find something or some one to respect. To give up control to, to allow to take over the body and mind is the desire so intense ath they will settle for way less then what they would in vanilla life.

I guess it is a lifestyle of those that are willing to let go of their ideals and settle for less. They need domination so badly that they will accept anything as a dominant let alone a master. Ask any male slave above the age of forty and you might find out that this is so very true. They are the ones that call you master in the first email. They say yes my master even thought they are not collared they are a sad lot but I think they are the only part of the lifestyle that have a shared value.

I thing that is why the old stories of the houses in Europe intrigue some of us so much. There was order, rules. Rites of passage and of course protocols for every thing. Even as a Dom functioning in such an environment is far easier then what we call the lifestyle of today. Doms that wear collars slaves that have degrees of service by title a bottom, sub, slave. Would be nice just to return to simpler ways but then I thought I was when I was in the lifestyle. I feel too much vanilla has seeped in too many that could not take the harshness of the lifestyle and have succeeded in watering it down to the pale image that is now the bDSM community. All this to say if I hear one more lifestylers say anything about safe or sane I will puke. Perhaps it might become a new fetish wear I do not know but it is consensual what I do it is not safe , it is not sane by normal standards.

I have had my little rant I am going back to my sabbatical from blogging and will remain silent until of course I have to puke again.
At best a rant

Inner exploration

2009-08-17T14:32:00.002-04:00

I have been quiet for a while and will be for at lease two more weeks. call it an education or a finding of oneself call it what you want just want to let every one know that a bear did not get me on my kyacking just need some time .

2009-07-31T10:01:00.003-04:00

The first time I was shown how far a slave would go was when I was 19. My girlfriend at the time Joanne and I were camping. WE plated a late night game of strip poker while camping. She had lost so I owned her clothes and best of all the rest of her cloths were in the car in our back pack. So when she said she was thirsty I said in a joking manner go get it . This wild look came over her face and she said Like this I said yes and my journey truly started in Domming. The shock and excitement caused by her going out of the tent naked was the greatest I had since being spanked myself by two older girls I had played strip poker with when I was fifteen.
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This would be the first time I dommed anyone for an extended period of time. I had to see how far she would go after that. After she had returned she literally jumped me talking a mile a minute about her walk from he tent to the picnic table a short ten feet but to her it was a mile long and could we do more things like that. During a walk through the wilderness I had her remove her top and stroll along in her bra then I had her remove it also. I was drunk with excitement more about the power I had over her then what she was actually doing .I use her wish to be controlled to explore what I could do with her. Spanking,bondage , outdoor bondage all sort of things I did not yet know the name of we did in out sojourns in camping. One of the keys that drew me deeper into the lifestyle was that even though she had great fear of discovery her desires only need a slight push or suggestion and there she was butt naked. I soon found out there are a lot of people out there that cannot do things that they enjoy with the kind push of a Dominant. I have since enjoy their desires to the nth degree.

So little time

2009-07-30T08:38:00.003-04:00

A thought many of us have is based that we do not have enough time to enjoy the lifestyle. Yet we are such wasters of time. The incorporation of the lifestyel into our vanilla existence is so easy. Going to a grocery store a mundane hour or two but perhaps the insertion of a butt plug and a can really enhance the journey. The strange feeling as your sub fights to hold it in while being sent on errans . Such as being in aisle 23 adn ask you sub to get butter in aisle 1 . A tack bra use by one of my friends to go to a munch and of course hug everyone that came in the door. Remote controlled vibrators plastic panties diappers are an easy one as you fill the diaper with a substance such as molasses I hope I spelled that right then go shopping as the day goes on the molasses gets a bit sticker and more bothersome to the point that if they were given the permission to do so they woudl rip it off in front of a crowd of people.

For a more visual one could have a sub female of course were a short skirt with larger then normal underwear . Hopefully the friction of the skirt will cause the underwear to work it's way down causing constant re-adjust ment add to this a but plug of ginger and you will have a wiggling and shaking going on what fun.

So truly you never have to have a dull moment waiting for the next session do you.

Swiches too much to do too little time

2009-07-28T09:29:00.002-04:00

Yean old post based n my experience take what you will from it.

A new Dom feels many things when first in the lifestyle. Astonishment as to what you can do to someone. The ultimate power you have and hold over the slaves. The excitement you can cause in some one by telling them to kneel let alone the word strip. The want and almost need to dom anything that shows the smallest submissive trait is so strong it is hard not to have twenty slaves when you begin.

A slave when first taste of submission comes to them it is tactile, the feeling of cold floor on your needs. The look of want in the eyes of the possible dominants that want you. The first slap the touch of the cane or whip stimulation almost beyond capacity for you to feel or understand but the need for more is great.

In a switch you must deal with both sets of wants of the dominants and submissive some times almost at the same time. There becomes a fire inside and the feeling that there is not enough time to experience everything. Unfortunately this can cause a vacuum for the switch as the wish to experience pushes opportunities too quickly and we loose sight of what we had too late and we loose them.

The best advice I can offer a switch is slow down and taste everything you are offered but truly taste it. Do not think that it will remain there waiting for you to taste nor think that throwing something in your mouth and with two bites swallow, tastes. That would compare to taking a fine wine in a beer stein.

The speed that one goes through and ultimately disposes of opportunities in the lifestyle might well be in ratio to those left damages or hurt in your wake.

Darkness where best we see the light

2009-07-17T22:58:00.000-04:00

Well it was dark and cloudy but as I say Darkness is where best we see the light. I said it many years ago and still believe in the statement. As my friends know my vision is poor but yet in a storm or dark night at least outside shadows come alive and the contrast is different. The harsh daylight blinds what I see well in the night.

Very much like the darkness we hide, at least most of us have to that have vanilla partners or children of any age. Vanilla family or friends the ones we never want o look bad in front of. Their concepts we do not want shattered perhaps the truth is too much to bear for some. No slave wishes his sons or daughters to see him naked on leash begging his master to hit him. No woman wishes her children to see her given away for play or the object of a gang rape fantasy.

Yet, close the lights and let the darkness fall and you have pure thought fantasy not controlled but thoughts of others or the physical laws vanilla desires. So in the dark light do we do see the beast that which is in us all striving for relief! A few hours perhaps minutes but release, to live roles or fantasy to taste the whip then like the vampires disappear before morning’s light.

Like a candle that can hide so easily in the daytime need the night to be shine so do we push the beast back in till next we find relief..

Addictions

2009-07-14T00:08:00.001-04:00

A blank page my quill is at the ready yet nothing flows down my arm to appear as written version of my thoughts. Perhaps too many thoughts are ready to be written perhaps there are none to be said.

The wonder drug Lyrica had it’s affect good at fist but the need increases and to achieve the same affect but like other addictions you need more to satisfy the demon.

Like the drug the allure of having a slave has returned and the addiction needs feeding once again. I find so m many are looking for love and marriage using the meat markets for that purpose for that reason. Yes they will tell you anything to get what they want. Now, the question is there a slave out there that will take only what is given and not demand for more!

Fear is a good thing

2009-06-28T11:19:00.000-04:00

Man is subject to innumerable pains and sorrows by the very condition of humanity, and yet, as if nature had not sown evils enough in life, we are continually adding grief to grief and aggravating the common calamity by our cruel treatment of one another. (J.A.Froude)

Would seem that Mr Froude would agree with me that we are cruel to each other part of our make up I guess. Why then should we change what we are?

Fear is a good thing in my opinion. Fear has kept the human race going for years without it Lions, Tigers and bears would rule. Fear intensifies our senses and causes the elevation of all sorts of endorphins. Something, which also provides flight for subs and slaves, seems funny does it not to say that we should not use fear in sessions and relations if it intensifies the feelings?

Now as far as cruelty would not stabbing someone with needles, beating them with tack paddles or whipping them till they hang from the chains they have be bound to. They certainly are not signs of love in the vanilla world, which J. A. Froude is a staunch member of, So while his words have the most meaning in that dimension they might well be out of context in the lifestyle.

Nope I think fear has its’ place in the toy bag and like any other toy must be used properly. One of the games you could say that need fear hmmm lets see I think it is called a mind fuck with out fear then it will not work. So I will stand by my words and go further fear greatly enhances emotions in a Master/slave relation. It keeps an edge that cannot be found elsewhere.

Do I want a perfectly trained slave

2009-06-26T23:41:00.002-04:00

What is a perfectly trained slave? That answer can only be found in the id of their owner.

As for me I do not believe in the idea of a perfectly trained slave that to me is a doormat. There is no spunk in a doormat; it is like whipping a dead horse. You might gain some pleasure from the beating but the horse will not move nor does it care.

I prefer a stronger character one that does rebel a bit shows some strength, one that is waiting to feel the reins pulled tight and shown once again the strength of the Master. I like a bit of fire I want the need to control those characters to consume my time with them. Yes part of the trip of a Master showing off what they can control. I am not as impressed with the docile slaves scurrying about because there are rules to follow, I want them to scurry about because they fear my disappointment, my anger and my discipline in other words they fear me.

Pure Master orowner is it possible

2009-06-15T00:20:00.000-04:00

I believe that pure domination is possible. Pure slavery and Pure owner can exists. I do believe many say they are in it by being in 24/7 relations or by the extreme of their play In my opinion, most who say they are in 24,7 relations really are, just it is not the lifestyle that is the bases.
No slave hands over total control to the dominants as they would, unless they be sold or given as an object. I feel a great many 24/7s cloud the idea with being together as 24/7 bdsm lifestyle rather than they are in a vanilla relation with a lot of kink. So total mental and physical control would be at the top of the list. I would never have to be anything but the owner or Master. Never to show weakness in front of the slave, so as not to give any form of control back to her.. Nor falter and allow the slave a choice of anything. Her vanilla life would disappear, as that is a form of control. Health , business, family and friends would have no concern for her as she would be like the couch or pot that I use. She would serve a purpose and I would care for her as I would any possession that proves itself useful.
Perhaps a week many two I would last as that type of Dominant, but for me that definition is more of a doormat then a slave. I do believe that must be given a controlling interest in all parts of the slave’s life nor should the Dominant show weakness in front of the slave. I just would prefer to be the proprietor of a fine horse then say I own a stool. Perhaps there is another definition of pure Master or Owner.

Pure Dominance

2009-06-14T08:49:00.003-04:00

A conversation with a friend delved into the idea of pure slavery. as I sit in my den listening to Medievil Babes I have come to realise this universe doe not allow singular entities to exist. Teh yning an dyang must exist in all parts of our lives. We now have accepted the idea of dark matter in the Universe.

SO if there is true slavery is there true Dominance?

What does it consist of off?

What if.

2009-05-06T10:42:00.001-04:00

A friend had mentioned in her blog that one of her fantasies , living 24/7 in a bdsm community had all since been squashed by the reality of vanilla life. Hog wash!

I feel in these days of fluctuating prices a small tract of land could be found and purchased by a group of lifestyles and could be formed into a gated community. Rules would have to be set as per visitors but the rest would be protocol driven. There are other communities that support the nudist lifestyle Why not a group of ten of fifteen couples . Unlike the nudist we would have to exclude children but a house or lodging could be set up for those in the lifestyle with children so the couple could visit with out their children.

I can think of a brochure for it all ready , Page one would have a picture of naked slaves sweeping the streets at the crack of dawn then hurrying home to cook breakfast. Second page would have some slave bein whipped because the eggs were cold again. While a few others wait tied to the fence for their punishment.

I could go on and on but the rest is for you to do.

Desensitization

2009-05-03T11:32:00.000-04:00

An old English professor of mine would put emphasis on the object of the preposition. He would say object of the prep and the class would say sition with great strength, He would have loved the word desensitization. He would be one of the few.

I received an email from the humiliation group on fetlife. How do you over come desensitization? Specifically desensitization to humiliation was the main topic. We tend in our lifestyle especially now a days, to concentrate on what we like rather then just taking the right amount we over indulge. We get our desert before we eat our Brussels sprouts. What peeks my interest here is that the Dominants that comment said things such as I wish you lived closer or that it was not being done right worse that what he needs is a great amount. I believe his question was how does he get the same enjoyment he once did and to me those answers would just drive his desensitization further. An old expression you can’t whip a dead horse comes to mind.

Again I see this god complex in some dominants and worse see how little they listen or understand what is being said to them. Perhaps his dominant over indulge him in humiliation perhaps too many joined in , perhaps they did not know how to do it right could be but the cure is to bring him back down to his base give him a rest from it. A friend of mine s sub has a very tuff buttock toward cp. Her Master wisely does not use only one weapon in his attempt to make her fly. He varies from whips to clamps and needles. He varies time place and circumstance. She always finishes most sessions wanting more yet had reach orgasm at least once.

So for me I would remove heavy humiliation from his sessions and replace it with some loving humiliation such as a whisper of him being my little whore as we walked on the street not loud enough for any one to hear but him and perhaps put a little more playfulness into the sessions to give him a little vacation from being the downtrodden. I do wish that Dominants would sit back now and then and take stock of their own humanity rather then think their shit does not smell. When a slave puts us on a pedestal it is one thing when we do it ourselves it is another. When we do it we are setting ourselves and our slaves up for a fall.

Of course my thoughts, my opinion.

Things I won’t do or ask for.

2009-05-02T20:38:00.000-04:00

Yes I do love telling anyone who will listen much like the ancient mariner of things I have done and would ike to do to slaves. I have listed rules and regulation my love of protocols, punishment sessions to extend play sessions and also my hard limits.

There are some things I will never ask for.

Permanent marks distinguishing ownership Cloud has been written on many an ass but never branded or tattooed. I love looking at those that carry piercing but have never told or ask a slave to have them done nor have I allowed them to do so in my ownership of them.

I will not be here for ever so to do so is just too much to ask of anyone. I am more impressed by the offering of slavery by some one to me then a mark saying I own them. I do not mark my stereo nor car and would not should I own a dog or cat so what would possess me to ask for such a thing of some one offering me more then any symbol could show.

Piercing for me get in the way of some play I like so nice jewels but do they come in clip on?

Now, for some thing a little more sombre asking for a a death pact. Something I had heard of in books such as the story of O and perhaps a few other stories. If the Master dies the slave commits suicide, Whoa Now I feel I can speak on this because I was asked to make one with a slave a few years ago. I did not refuse at first instead I pointed out she had children she had others depending on her and could not enter into such a pack nor would I ask any one to do so. If anything I want them to go off and tell every one what a great Master I was and boy anyone not trained by Cloud missed out.

There is a reality to the lifestyle we are not born to it as some think those supposed naturals that gave commands minutes after coming out of the womb. I am not a god I am close at times but just do not want to make as many mistakes as they have. I do not wish to control the length of time on this plane of existence merely like to enjoy the time I have and they have on it. The serious side of a slave asking for a death pact is it might be a cry saying they do not really have control over them selves to be a slave and should get help from outside of the lifestyle. I can see the ideal and possibility of living 24/7 but not this type of control this type is well passed a healthy bdsm relationship. My thoughts , my opinion.

Simple rule

2009-04-30T11:27:00.001-04:00

In discussion with a few of my friends we came to a conclusion that many share in the lifestyle. Simple politeness is gone from the lifestyle. The etiquette that was instilled in me as a child. Simple things like respect towards one another to keep the world civil, both in the respect of you elders and betters as well as those beneath you. If I was nasty to a waiter in a restaurant because they were a waiter I was reprimanded for it. It did not matter that I was the customer he was doing me a service and I had to be polite.

I expect from a slave politeness but I also give servility to them. They might like being called a dirty f…..k… Bitch some times and I do to help them attain where they want to be. 90% of my interaction with them is quiet and without the vulgarities of vanilla life. SO I have a very simple house rule politeness at all times..

A ponderance on caging

2009-04-29T09:44:00.000-04:00

Caging came up in another blog I read and I had a laugh. It made me remember the old rule on leashes. It a slave has a leash on and it hangs free with neither the slave or the dominant holding it it used to mean that person was offering themselves to anyone in the room. Should some one take hold of the leash then they had control over the slave. Since there are no rules in a large book then for me if I caged a slave and left them with no sign stating ownership I feel it would be doing the same as if I let go of a leash. The only thing that would stop me from gong up to a caged slave and having some fun with her is I am a strong believer in protocols, which really are based on common etiquette. I would have no problem if I was told the slave was an offering to all or if I was asked to play.

Ny first public play occurred many years agao and did not have th erules that so many think exist in the lifestyle. Dominants would gather in one room and have a drink while in the other room the slaves stripped and knelt when they entered and waited. Waited not for their Doms but by any dominant in the room. There was no choice except not to show up. SoO it did not matter whether you were in a cage or on a leash whether you like one dominant over the other.
We were just happy to play. Now I see the influence of advertisers show desire as rightful needs we want out perfect ideal and that to me had taken so much fun out of the lifestyle. No spontaneity no fear of what might happen just following a script.

Safe , I don't think so!

2009-04-28T06:28:00.003-04:00

Safe is not a word I would ever use in the description of the lifestyle or those in it. I find it is used too often and more as a carrot to entice then anything else. Many years ago when clubs were dark and dank hankie codes were the only way of communicating. In that time there were many combination of where the hankie was and it’s colour which stated what the person was and into. Now I have racked my brain and I do not remember any combination of the above that would tell you some one was safe.

Now I do realize that there is a great trend in the vanilla world to rubberize everything we have to where helmets to ride a bike, our children cannot play tag because it is aggressive and the list goes on and on. I think if you join a football team you know that there is a chance of injury. I do not remember any team stating they were safe. Hockey no, Lacross no anywhere or time there is physical contact of an aggressive nature there is a chance of injury. No one I know of would look me in the eyes and say I play contact sports because I know I am safe from injury.

So for me the word safe should not be used so liberally. The lifestyle is not safe it is an extreme sexual foreplay at the least. It can hurt your body you mentality and your self worth. It is not meant for the weak of mind and should not be water down in anyway to please the trend set in the vanilla world or make it easier for acceptance. Like an extreme sport you have to know the rules and risks going in. This one there are no rules set in stone. I do not believe that there is a save way versus an unsafe way to participate. You cannot rely on another’s experiences to keep you safe. You have to read, go to munches and play parties where you can watch and see. You have to realize that a spanking in a fantasy is one thing and not sitting down for a few days without jumping out of your skin might not be the experience you are looking for. So before asking for twenty tight ones with a cane try a few ass slaps first.

Last tid-bit of this semi rant. YOU whether Dom or slave, submissive or top are making the decision to play you and only you are responsible for your safety. If because some one says they are safe or if you do it this way it is safe does not mean your safety is ensured.

On the other hand

2009-04-26T09:55:00.000-04:00

I was at a munch last night, something I had not attended for about a year. I was pleasantly surprised to meet Agdistis there with her new partner. Lovely chatting with a newbbie to the lifestyle to hear her ideas and concepts so nice to see the energy she puts forth being that this is the start of her journey. IT is funny how much the lifestyle had changed and how many degrees have formed. IT is also funny how discoveries are made when sitting talking with others. A new Domme found out how much more her sub would like to go in the service end and staying in role, which she seemed to be quite happy about.

I also sat for a bit with a friend that had split from his Dominant recently. Though he presented himself as being happy marching off to a play party with his toy bag he was not the same talkative lad that would at times tease his Dominant. More like Bob Cratchet after loosing tiny Tim than a man off to have his dark desires realized.

Last a small rant I am sadden to say that I find many of us older ones are letting slip the values that we had held to and defended so hard, because of lack of work ethics , fashion or we are getting tired . I am saddened by the lack of protocols and behaviour accepted.

On the other hand I am glad to see the enthusiasm is present in the new ones to life style and was encourage last night by a few bright hopes and look forward to hearing more about their journey.

Fear

2009-04-15T09:19:00.000-04:00

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A lovely sensation at times for a slave or sub Fear is. It brings anticipation, intensity and extreme sensitivity to all around them. It starts all those chemicals and endorphins up in the body. It wets their loins you could say for what will happen next for the slave a bit of fear is a catalyst at times.

Fear in Dominant is unacceptable. The fear of failure, of ridicule or of not pleasing the slave, all fears that can enter into a Dominant soul. All do not belong there. Making excuses so as to avoid confronting them is also unacceptable.

The greatest fear that to me destroys sessions and relations is the fear of injuring. My god you are the ones supposedly in control if you cannot control your fear please do not call yourselves Dominants and above all do not play or own slaves. I grow tired of hearing the whining of Dominants that profess to be strong-minded and in character yet fear decision-making . Do I hit her ten or twelve times best error on the safe side. What a Masterful statement just makes you want to be be ill does it not. Protocols and rules are too much trouble for the new Dominants I feel much easier to allow slaves to decide on their own so the Dominants can have reason to punish. Well I hate to tell you but if you own a slave and feel like whacking her ass till she wet on both sets of her cheeks that is your right as an owner you do not need reason for that nor her permission. You need to buck up a bit stand up straight and realize that being a Dominants is a lot of work if you fear the work or the results best not try as you have failed already.

Please understand this before you contact me to be mentored as a Dominant. If you are a slave best make sure you understand the meaning of the word slave.

What is in a name

2009-02-21T22:20:00.003-05:00

I was shocked to hear of a fellow member of the lifestyle a friend from the eighties had pass away a few years ago. His handle was Lord Rope. I never knew of his real name. I cannot write anything on this man except he showed me that laughter is an integral part of the lifestyle. Not a lot sort of sad I cannot say more sad also that I did not know of his passing.

We have handles for many reasons. One being to protect ourselves against the crazies and tho of the moral right. So we are set to hiding our names and identify in darkness. We choose our titles to attract to represent what we try to say about ourselves. We read them allowed to make sure they have the desired effect. The handle identifies us in the lifestyle and what we are. It just never appears in an obituary. So only those close to us or in contact with us know of our existence.

Our handles are also regional I am sure there are many Lord Ropes as well as Clouds around depending on what website and service . My readership has gone down mostly because I remove most of my links from other blogs so now I wonder if in years to come one of my past slaves will wonder what ever happened to Cloud you know the one Loved paddles and belts. Perhaps we should start up an obit page on one of the services maybe even a retirement listing . You know at the age of 60 Cloud retired it was said with the lost of his last tooth the bite had gone out of him! Well hopefully I will be remembered for something else!

Fear of not being remembered is that not everyone to have lived a life behind doors and back rooms no one really ever knowing who you were what you did in life. Just one of the masses that walked on this planet without leaving a foot print.

Clitoral stimulation

2009-02-09T15:45:00.002-05:00

an interesting discussion on Fet life about the stimulation of the clitoris through sweet torture such as slaping, tickliing , sucking and biting. Many other have surfced elctrical,and a few more will no doubtly. I am surprise taht a dental probe has not. A lovely little tool with a hook o the end to probe through teeth is an excellent little stimulator. The small pointed end can give you hours of teasing pleasure . I used in on many area of amanda nipples, clit and anus when she tried to refuse her butt plaug it was excellent in showing her why ones anus shoudl be eagarly open for their owner.

There is also bondage the lack of mantion woud make a few of my freinds sad. Having a rope constanlty dragging back and forth on the little bud can cause some to go quite mad with excitement. Or having most of the pressure from your body supported on the rope against that clit almost as good as the Catholic Horse. For fast relief of the itch though I use a little leather strap that stimulates the clit as well as the surrounding area while taking a little longer it is fun to watch as her fingers are slapped as well as her lips on my way to the little bald man in the boat.

How long can you

2009-01-20T10:51:00.002-05:00

A blog inspired this question. How long could you last? Now that I have your attention it is not quite about your staying power during sex but a question on you ability to stay within a mindset.

We all say we live the lifestyle when we can or are 24/7 . Really it is only a fraction of the time we are awake. Masters do not make all the decision.for the most part. I have seen many a husband /Master told they are not buying that or going there. Slaves do not sit naked in one position till Master arrives. There are families and vanilla issues to be dealt with in vanilla ways. Plus there is our own personalities .

so how long can you last being in the mindset you have chosen in the lifestyle? Just with your own personality to deal with .

Mine has been about 8 hours as a slave when I was away at camp the rest of the time i has been broken time as the interference of vanilla life and my own personality with out the presence of a strong dominant. As a Dominant most like a week.

CLoud

Release

2009-01-14T09:39:00.004-05:00

‘A true lack of writing ….’ As my mentor reminds me.

So much of the journey is experiencing, feeling, and writing it all down. To share, disclose, self actualize, and somehow also embrace it all can quickly become very overwhelming.

However, since I committed to discover, feel, and embrace everything that my dominate nature could evolve into, I also accepted the possibility that what I might find, may not be what I expected ...

So has become the case.

As I have so aggressively dove in and expressed my dominate nature with the many available slave and sub boys at my disposal, I have taken great care to develop my craft (yet, not without lessons along the way…)

In such a short amount of time I have enjoyed many sessions of inflicting pain to their helpless balls and cocks. Watching them as their squirming hips try so desperately to avoid my intent. They all knew what was next, and like lost little boys as they looked up at me from the floor only incentivized me more to quickly strap them up, bound tightly against my flogging board and begin the next round of my pleasure.

Yet, as enjoyable as all of these encounters for me have been, silently, and ever so gently, parts of me not wanting to acknowledge or even accept what I have always perceived as the ‘weaker’ side of nature has also evolved and transcended me into a softer place …

a submissive side, or nature if you will …,

And as I have continued with my sub and slave boys and the intensity of the sessions have increased, this realization of a possible submissive side that might exist inside of me has often come with angst and uncertainty. Hence, my hesitation to write it all down and make it real.

But finally ….

From the time that I first purchased a collar for a slave boy, my dominate side was smug in agreement that yes, this collar would certainly do. However, ever so quietly, a humming soon began as I secretly wanted to ‘know’ what it would feel like around my own neck.

Pushing out those first initial thoughts, I was appalled at myself. How could I even consider to be a responsible Domme if any part of me also might even want to relinquish control, or even consider feeling the same taste of leather as it cut thru the air and land sharply against my slave boys back.

So suddenly, and almost immediately as I reveled in this fleeting thought, an intense energy of such strong sexual arousal went thru me which absolutely knocked me off my feet.

And then I knew. So simply in fact.

It wasn’t about losing something, or giving in to a point of vulnerability of which I can never return. It is about really, really, understanding my own nature in all its complexities, in all its needs, wants and desires.

It was about release.

Yet, another complication. I am not, nor have I ever been sexually attracted to men. I am a lesbian by nature; this realization has always been a part of my life and has never caused me any true angst or confusion of where my emotional and sexual love comes from.

Straight people never say to themselves, ‘gee, I wonder if I’m straight’ …. Well, gay people don’t ask themselves that question either. We know.

So, once acknowledged that the need existed for me to feel the release of my dominate side, the thought of where to safely land and experience this did not exist for me.

Then, as suddenly as the realization that my submissive side existed, and knowing my nature which would never allow any man to dominate me, I knew my release could only come from a woman.

And then she arrived.

In this small, meek little package that under any normal vanilla circumstances I could so easily overpower and break. She stood before me and wanted to know my truth.

To this woman whom in her 50 years has never been exposed to the BDSM lifestyle. I have presented myself naked, on my knees, head bowed, and properly collared. I can not even begin to describe how at that moment, when I was before her, where both my mind and heart landed. But clearly, it was at the foot of the stairs at the entrance of the house I have always wanted to live in.

Amazingly she doesn’t even realize how she controls me … Yet, I know, it is for me in the most delicious way possible… with the love, care and purity of her heart.

‘Teach me’ she says, I need to know who you are, I need to know all of who you are and how we can be that together. And in this what was once just my journey, has become hers. One that I get to see unfold and evolve for her, as my mentor CLoud has seen mine from afar as well…

More for me to write about later as our journey continues …

Nipple hygene

2009-01-06T16:15:00.003-05:00

Yes Id believe that nipples should be cared for properly. They have a place not only in the world of sensation but of procreation of the species there fore special care must be given to keep the appearance and health of the nipple.

So what I use is a cloth, a nail brush ( the one with a handle much easier to keep your hands out of the way). Cold water (in winter I use snow ) and of course hot water. A good soap and moisturizer. First to make the nipple erect I cool it down with the snow or cold water to achieve it's maximum height. I then grab the breast giving it a good squeeze pushing the nipple out further. At this point I should say that the slave should be secured so the hands and feet cannot move, some have been known to attack the dominants while cleaning, some thing about excited or in pain were excuses used. Then start a good brushing of the nipple and surrounding area five minutes each should do well. Leave one with the soap on and move to the other so really ten minutes for the two.

Rinsing should be done with the cold water first then use the brush again with hot water to make sure all the soap is gone would not want to dry the little darlings out. NOW clothes pegs to stretch them out and allow to dry. To make sure all that nasty water is gone I suggest another good five minute rub down with a very ruff towel makes the nipple stand and surely rids you of any water. Release one of the nipples at a time and no need to be gentle nipples can take a lot.

Moisturizers and creams are up to you but you must work them in well so another good five minute rub down for each nipple. Of course what comes next is up to you add a little lip stick or leave natural I like to reward them at his time if they have been good so I allow them to wear something that will drag across their nipples to re-create the lovely sensation of their dominants care.

Yes some times if they have been naughty before I put on the cream I have sprayed them with alcohol, rubbed lemons on them or covered them in shoe polish and let it dry a bit. There is such a lovely expression o their face when give brush and water and told to clean the nipples of the polish right down to the natural colour.This I find corrects behavior quickly.

I also do this when there is a party and we play twist the nipple. A card game and every one is deal a card odds twist the left and evens twist the right. Jacks twist both Queens use their teeth and the king can do it all with a little goose at the end. After 52 cards the slave is very responsive to any touch of her nipples so responds quickly to commands.

Male slave can follow the same process but it is a little longer as there are two nipples one cock and two balls. IF you do it well the male will not want anything to do with arousal for a little while but of course you know what is best for him do you not.

Fear of role

2009-01-05T11:28:00.001-05:00

Fear the greatest weapon in Dominant’s hands could also be the greatest draw back. Dominant fear also my little pets if they do not they are called monsters and usually are put away when found in some dark recess. Fear guides the Dominant’s hand to know when it is too much and too little. We do not like to disappoint though so many after a session will say I could have lasted longer if we did what slaves wanted, some of us would be arrested or visiting our slaves in the hospital. There is the fear of going too far and enjoying the sensation too much. The fear of just going too far and of causing permanent damage to the slave. I was always told to leave the table wanting a bit more and that is how I try to treat my slaves. These fears guide us and I would say that anyone with intelligence in the lifestyle has figured these out.

There is another fear more for the old guard rather then switches that is the taste of the other side. What does it feel like? The slave might wonder how does it feel to whip and the dominant might desire the taste of the lash. Old school has a hard time crossing over or back and forth they are a bit ridged.

In my opinion, you master your self when you have mastered the desire or the ability to pass between worlds.

I guess the only fear left then is do you want to come back.

New year resolutions.

2008-12-31T09:27:00.002-05:00

I do not see the need for those of weak wills to pick out this day so that they can announce their impending failure to the world. Stop smoking, diets , wanting to change their lives and of course exercise. You can easily see that after a night of parting and the realisation of another year passing the drive to change is strong. Why though rely on some thing that has constantly failed you in the past your strength of will. Looking in the mirror you will see just how far that has helped you in the East.

So why not get outside help then contact a dominant and I am sure once the contract is signed you will achieve your goals. I do not mean we have cures for major illness but we do know how to change and control people that wish it. We can use various methods such as the horse ride. A treadmill is needed the addicted one get on the treadmill when ever they want a cigarette a time is set and speed and every time they do not maintain it they are buggy whipped. OR how about the big chill every time you have a cigarette you loose a piece of clothing for those not into pain of course if you are a chain smoker you are working naked for most of the day. We run wonderful boot camps and enjoy our work immensely. SO instead of those faithful word I resolve to just contact you r neighbourhood dominants and give them a shot. Unless you really fear what you desire!

Lunch

2008-12-30T10:26:00.003-05:00

Funny emails, chats blogs and threads all forms of communication yet the old liquid lunch or at least as liquid as I can do now can reveal so much about people and relations. Openness occurs even with out the beer as if you more easily em brass the trust set out at such events. So that said I met some a friend of a friend from the states very enjoyable person Look forward to chatting with her more in the future. I found out that in my friend who introduced us has gone through so many adventures in the short period of two weeks. I see many fears have fall and tastes have change I would have to say her growth rate is phenomenal and quiet exciting to be a small part of it. It is not always perfect the development of our lives but it is so exciting when we dare to step and increase our vulnerability by revealing a little more of our selves to others.

Now why am I labeling this under fear well I cannot think of anything more fearful for my self then reveal my darkness to others. When others do this with such easy it impresses me. I have always said knowledge is the most powerful weapon I give it in distorted blurbs and hidden in phrases never quite saying the entire truth instead leaving the truth hidden in layers of words.

So I am impress with my friend, old and new. Yes even a little with myself wonderful what lunch can do for you !

Incentive ideas for Holiday parties with your slave

2008-12-15T16:44:00.001-05:00

Inventive ideas for Christmas

1. Ting a ling bells are always great nipples testicles ankles and wrist collars with belles. Certainly a slave bouncing around doing his tasks will only lend to a festive spirit with the tinkling.
2. The Christmas goose as per the Christmas Carol 12 days of Christmas. Each day being the number of fingers used would be fun on the twelfth day ten fingers and two fists yep that makes twelve does it not.
3. Oh Christmas tree well if you attach the hand to the ankles then bring his feet over so he is resting on his shoulders. Spread the ankles wide that sort of give a shape of a tree. Clamps with bells can be attached to his testicles down around his ankles then to his nipples. You can sting garland hang ornaments and of course the star has to go on or in his ass to be the highest.
4. Chestnuts roasting well this one are easy hot towels then a good close shave followed by putting the testicles in a bucket of snow. They should shrivel up and have a similar look as roast chestnuts. Now for the hot part lovely hot wax dripped on. Festive coloured candles would be nice to use.
5. Stuffing the turkey always a fun thing not hard to do just see how much of what you like can be inserted and held. Grapes nuts carrots Potatoes the choice is yours just grab the penis and testicles and with a little oil insert the desired ingredients. A nice surprise for the dear little slave includes some ginger root with the mix Tape the cheeks together and watch the fun. There will be a lot of gobbling and prancing around I am sure. Do not forget to baste or oil well another variation is to grease every thing including his hands after applying the tape and then tell him he can empty as soon as he can get the tape off that could be good for hours of entertainment depending on the tape job and the amount of oil.
6. Hark the slave does song attach the testicles to the ankles in a squatting position and apply a heat rob of sort to his testicles and in his anus and see how much of a soprano he is give him a Carol to sing when it is over then let his balls go if he does not sound in key well do it over and over till he gets it right.
7. Joy to the world my ass is red. Well simply said a paddling for twelve minutes Oh just to make sure it gets red make sure the ass is nice and cold a nice bucket of snow is always a good thing.
8. And now we don our gay apparel well pretty obvious well take any slave. Get red, white, green stay up stocking matching panties and bra with a some thing pretty for his neck get a skirt that covers but not that well and a slut top for him shoes would be wonderful the higher the heel the better causes them to walk slowly. You can put on make up and a wig just make sure that noon could mistake him for anything then a man in women’s clothing. Then toss him in the car and take him for a ride. Try to find a quiet corner store of gas station and have him pump the gas or go in and buy some thing that he has to ask for. Hopefully a woman is working and you have scope out some thing that is hidden away. If the woman is bored she just might make a few suggestions for you as what to do with him. This should bring about Christmas colour quiet quickly and put everyone in the spirit of giving.
9. Ding dong it is not so long. The pulling and stretching of the testicles and penis. Every Dominant in the room is given the chance to stretch and pull the slaves penis and balls a total of five minutes each before and in-between the anatomy is cooled down in snow when each Dom is finished the slave is measured what ever the larges measure that Dom wins a tongue bath of any part of their body. Should there be any accidents on the part of the slave well he must lick it up and continue if there are too many accidents add a bit of Tabasco sauce with is dripping that should put the fire in him to play properly at Christmas.
10. We three dominants, just those three dominants with strap-ons dildos or their own equipment and a slave with two orifices well guess that means a male slave. Play the carol we three Kings and when a new king starts to sing switch positions of the Dominants. Play the carol three times. Who win s the dominants silly the one not in the slaves ass or mouth when the carol stops decides if they should play the carol three more times depending on how my dominants have not yet cum
11. OH little dicks this is easy of all the male slave the one with the shortest dick is spanked twenty five times on his ass and then 24 on his dick with a six inch plastic ruler by all in the room and this is the time when a small number of is a good thing guests that is not penis size.
12. T’is the time for bondage and follies. The poor slave that has had to endure these past 11 tortures should get a rest and a break but hell that is a slaves lot in life tied the poor boy up in your favourite position and then reflect on how much you like to give and he likes to receive so have fun. HO HO HO

What you do not have a slave to do this to just let me know I will direct you to one or two

Center pieces

2008-12-15T06:15:00.002-05:00

It is a tradition for us to have a centre piece for the holiday parties and dinners. Some hints from an evil mind. Females display nicely either spread eagle or other position. The hands an mouth can be used to hold candles so the guests can see what they are plucking up off of her. You can use the arm pit and spread legs to offer different selection such as meat , fish , veggies or salads. Ice can be built in to the crotch to keep the wine chilled as well as bits of fruit for the purpose of decorating.

My favorite is using them as the desert table center piece. Drizzle some chocolate sauce across the pussy then insert some fruit to open areas up cakes can be displayed on the legs and arms. The belly can hold more sauce a bowl is optional. Chips and crackers all sorts of things you can do.

Preparations of the slave. This is one of the times I wash my slaves. A good scrubbing first then tonal body shave this will take a good hour as I go over and over all area till I am sure no hair or fuzz exists. Followed d by a good internal wash out of all areas. You cannot have the center piece let go of some wind it just puts people off the dip. Then a norther good scrub I have then stand out side of the bath and use a good strong brush and soap them up really good then I rinse every square inch of them just tot make sure no one gets a hair in their food. Use a good quality olive oil and rub then down once the are in position so they do shine then start the decorating about half and hour before presentation.

You can use bows or garland with the candles or just the festive food might be enough. Once desert is over just flip her and use her to hold candles, drinks or flowers the placement area become obvious when she is in this position. Or start a new tradition such as Carrol spankings or the Christmas carrot insertion how many can she take.

And that was my Martha moment

CLoud

Breathing

2008-12-04T22:58:00.002-05:00

After a few surgeries and having tubes coming out of all sorts of areas, you tend to have an appreciation for breathing. So while my own is decent right now I do listen a lot to the breathing of slaves.

There is the first breath. The first time a slaves begins to undress before you notice they take a deep breathe almost as it they are saying what have I gotten into. The more experienced slave has normal breathe until the session begins. Some hold a breath when they have been caught doing an oops. The there is the panting during pain trying to catch their breath and hold it for the next stroke thinking that will fortify them. When in flight the breathe is no longer laboured until they reach their maximum then there is the giant release as all air leaves them .

I do not do breath play but I do love to listen as they suffer for their enjoyment. Such a pleasant noise like a symphony in it's tempo and strength.

CLoud

Age is a funny thing

2008-12-04T08:55:00.003-05:00

I was in Ottawa this past weekend. I saw some old friends and talk to new ones. I did not play nor did I miss not playing. I was Agdistis and watch her with open eyes absorbing everything. I also met with Lady Pearl. Another newbie, we chatted for a while and then she was going to join into a scene. Well for a newbie having come out just a few weeks ear;ier had an experience slave yelping and screaming, twisting on the post and probably wishing he had not offered to be involved with her training.

Teh sounds of the night were gorgeous there are certain types of noise slaves make. We could hear morningstar groaning with the odd scream a male slave having his balls beaten. That sound was sort of interesting. There was the slap against skin followed by the sound of throwing a rock into mud, quite sweet actually.So I guess he did have a right to scream.

So I did not play but I enjoyed the conversation, the company and of course, the lovely songs provided by slaves in agony. No not a rock group just slaves in agony. So I guess getting older is sort of nice you can sit back andrelax why enjoying the senses of sound and light.

Ottawa

2008-11-28T12:58:00.000-05:00

Ottawa

I am off with friends to visit the fair city of Ottawa do some shopping and attend a party at Breathless. Lady Kate will be the host for the party. She is a well-established Dominant in the area. I look forward to seeing some old friends, to introduce Agdistis and of course to meet others. If you read my bogs, seen my profiles and are in attendance please say hello. Dominants, slaves does not matter we love to chat and talk.

If you are interested in playing well we can with female or male slaves Agdistis loves to torture the male anatomy and I do have a penchant to doing the to women.

I had hoped to bring bob the male slave I have used in mentoring of Agdistis but he availability does not fit with my needs so he has been released to Agdistis.

There is also a planned trip to a saddle shop, which should be interesting.

Looks like winter out there

2008-11-25T06:07:00.003-05:00

Ah the first snowfall I can see slave Sand subs naked in the snow. Is that not exciting! One tied to tree out stretched arms legs wide apart with that lovely glow that winter air caused to slave's skin. A warm pink colour does put me in the spirit. So a lovely look of fear in their eyes as they dart about looking to see if they have been seen. Of course the only ones to have seen them would be reindeer perhaps an elf or two. I guess that is why they are on their best behaviour when they are tied up outside. Of course it could be they are cold but I think their nipples give them away. Nice and erect stretching the limits the skin put on them obviously they are excited and enjoying them selves.

To complete this picture all we need are some snowpersons, snow angels and of course icicles now lets see how do we get icicles to form well I guess some sort of running water Now how are those bladders doing!

CLoud

Control

2008-11-19T13:43:00.002-05:00

(After I reread this I realized how off track I got....sorry)

littleone asked what my definition of control is?

I spent some time thinking about this and it has taken me a long time to try and write it out. I am not sure what I am avoiding but maybe I just don't know exactly what how to define it. I decided to write out what I 'think' I desire and that might help define control for me. It feels weird to write about what I want but I think it will help me.

I really would like for my mate to step up and take the reins. I want him to be 'the head of the household' so to speak. Some people I have met say that I want someone to micromanage me and I don't' see it that way. I would like to have the control step out of the bedroom and into our day to day life. Don't get me wrong I am really enjoying the sexual side of our life.

Side step to last night......
My mate came into the bedroom and told me to take my clothes off, lay on the bed and wait for him to come back and use me. OMG! My clit started to throb right there. I did as I was told and when he came in he really did 'use' me. It really did feel like he was the one in control. In the previous months I had felt that he was going threw the motions to appease me. Over the last month or so I feel that he is the one in control. I am there to serve and please him and that feeling has been amazing. But now I am like a kid in the candy store and I want more and more.

Our pattern lately has been up and down. We will have a great time for about a month and I feel that he is really enjoying things and embracing it and then there will be this step back from him. He will just decide that he doesn't want to take the lead int he bedroom and it throws me for a loop. I don't know what to do. I have been in this submissive space for a while and now he wants to just step out of it. I usually just go with it, but it tends to drag on and on. I feel confused and a bit lost. When I finally have the guts to ask about things he will say oh sorry and then he will flip back, and we will have a month or so like last night.

Go back in time a few months.......
A few months ago my mate told me that maybe I should start looking for a Dom online again because he wasn't up for the challenge. We spent a long time talking and trying to figure things out. One of things I love most about my marriage is that we have pretty good communication...not the best but good. I figured I would wait for a bit and see if that was how he was really feeling. I asked Sir Micheal to talk to him. This is the beginning of the up and down of things. It's frustrating for both of us. I figure that looking online for a Dom might be a good idea.

As I write this I am thinking that maybe I just need more consistency. When my mate is taking control things feel right or in place for me and then we hit a bump and it all goes to hell. I guess little one I am searching for more constancy in the control. I want to be allowed or granted the the right to be submissive and have it last more than a month. I do also want the level of sexual control to reach outside the bedroom but I think consistency is the first step.

Honestly I don't know what to do from here. I am honest about what I want and how I feel. I am honest about who I am and what I desire. I feel I do all the right things but it doesn't play out. am I asking too much? Am I expecting to much? I am open to hearing how others opinions because I know I am doing something wrong??

~fledgeling~

Feeling Lost

2008-11-15T19:44:00.007-05:00

K wrote from - http://notquiteplanned.blogspot.com/ "So I've been rebuilding, from the ground up, to learn how to identify myself through only myself. Because if I can't do that, then I'm not ready to move on and I'm certainly not ready to belong to someone else because as long as I'm still clinging to that bit of identity I had in that relationship I am still owned in part - even if I've been released."

This quote from k's blog really made me think. Ever since i was released from Cloud i still think of what He would have me do or how He would help guide me threw a situation. i think about His thoughts more than Sir Micheal. Even to this day i still look to Cloud for advice. i value and trust His opinion. Does that mean i haven't truly left? Then i read in a comment by Cloud this afternoon: "as far as taking you back from what you write I do not think you really ever left"

When i first meet Cloud online i knew within a few emails that i could trust Him. i tend to really trust my intuition and i am usually right. (Not to pat myself on the back or anything it's just something i trust in myself) Even with this recent Dom i met online i looked to Cloud to help me. Deep down i knew this Dom wasn't right for me but i still looked to Him for advice. i wonder why?

i am SOOOOOOO longing for a Dom in my life right now. i feel i need the control more now than ever. i have felt this burning desire inside me for so long. It is like i am half way there but never get all the way. UGH!!!!!

i need the control. i want the control. It's not just sexual. i desire the day to day control. i desire to get my mind refocused on my submission. That is something i find i struggle with on my own. i try to focus my submission when i am with Sir Micheal or my mate, but there is always this sense of something missing. It's like i am surrounded by people who love and care for me but just can't give me all i desire. Am i being selfish or do i just know what i want?

i feel at a crossroads of sorts. It's like i could try and move forward with my submission or i could just push it back down and move on as things are now. i have been on my own for quite some time now and i am starting to feel lost again. i felt so focused and on track when i was released from Cloud......now i feel like i am floating out into oblivion.

well those are the thoughts running around in my head. Maybe i am over thinking things? Maybe i am desiring to much? Maybe i am being to picky?

Until next time
~fledgeling~

Did they change the formula

2008-11-15T18:36:00.002-05:00

A nice set of balls already to be torture a dash of absorbine junior and and nothing a mild warming perhaps. Did testicles toughen up so much .

A535 deep heat cream. and here is how I do it. A nice close shave of just the balls and if need be the penis. Make sure the slave has let it grow for at least a week. then apply nice warm towels to help the balls relax. When nice and far out of the body apply the cream to the balls and if you are really nasty the penis also. Now I usually tie their hands to the rafters I let their feet free to entertain us with a little dance. Then sit back and enjoy the show the real burn comes in a few minutes and last for a long time. The shaving allows the cream to touch almost new skin. The best thing is when it all dies down and the slave is taken down suggest a shower and wait for the first drops of water to hit those testicles you most likely to hear some singing in the shower. SO you now have turned you slave into a song and dance slave with just a little cream and little effort on your part.

Oh make sure yo are playing with a pain slut

CLoud

Finding the in-between

2008-11-12T21:39:00.003-05:00

I have recently been exploring my options and trying to meet Doms online. I had wonderful luck with Cloud. I am hoping to find something similar,but closer because I feel I need a physical hand. I went to collarme.com and updated my profile. I got a lot of responses fairly quickly and started to filter them. I met a few prospects and started emailing/chatting. There is always the first chat which helps you feel if there is a connection. Now some may argue that you really can't get a feel for someone online but I beg to differ. It takes a certain level of intuition but it is possible to find something worth while. It is few and far between but it is possible.

I have found that there are many fake people out there and it presented itself to me recently. It was interesting because I felt that I really connected to this man. It was the first time my intuition had failed me. This man only wanted kinky phone sex or online play. When I asked serious questions I got the run around. My red flag went up immediately. I asked Cloud for some guidance and He helped me see what I already knew....this man was not what I was looking for. Why was it so hard for me to notice? I so deeply want a Dom that I was thinking I could settle. Ofcourse it only lasted a few minutes but how could I bee so weak to settle. I know who I am and what I need. I have been in this lifestyle for long enough to not be sucked in by such fakes. UGH!! I know that I am human and I am trying to give myself a break.....but am I desperate. I don't want my desires to blurrrrr my vision. I ended thins with this man and He was vary understanding. It was easier than I thought.

After this experience I have contemplated asking Cloud to take me back. I need a strict hand to get me back in sync with my submissive side. Cloud had an amazing ability to push me....even from far away. I was ready and He was great for me. Now this was a while ago and I have come much further and deep down I know I need the physical hand....but man it is hard to not go back to the familiar....the place you feel safe. Cloud always made me feel safe. He accepted me for me...and I am so comforted by that feeling.

Okay I am way off topic. (I wish I was a deep writer like Cloud...Ugh the pressure...heehee) Anyway this experience with the online Dom lead me to think about what I need. I am bombarded by online Dom/Dommes who want all or nothing. I am finding that my vanilla life allows me only something in-between. I need to find a physical hand that understand my vanilla life. Ugh! Just typing it makes it sound impossible.

I continue my search online. I am going to open myself to the idea of a couple seeking a submissive. I find that I connect with woman just as well as Dominant men. A couple seems more open to understanding limitations...specifically time limitations. I like the idea of exploring my Dominant side with another female. It is something that intrigues me but scares me. I am frightened by my Dominant desires more than my submissive ones. Hmmm?

Well that's about it for me. I'd like to make time to post here once a week. I am not sure what I have to add to this blog? Maybe my naive thinking wont scare otherss off.

~fledgeling~

Communications.

2008-11-10T14:34:00.000-05:00

Communications.

First these are how I work if you do not know yet there is no book of rules so this is how I do it and why.

I like to talk to a person on the other end of the line that enjoys many of the things I do. I am polite and honest with them and expect the same in return. I want to see quiet manners and respect. I do not like it when some one calls me Master in the first email. I have chosen the handle or name of Cloud for that reason. If some one calls me master in the first email I guess then they have given themselves to me already and there is no need to talk about hard limits or likes and dislikes.

SO to start with a slave should be able to express herself as to what they like or what they are looking for. They should be able to ask at least twenty questions of me. Should they not be able to then they have not really thought the slave idea through well enough for me.

Rules to follow:

1. Be honest
2. Be on time
3. Call me Cloud unless you are giving yourself to me then and there.
4. Answer my questions with answers not just more questions
5. Be polite
6. Know what my profile says
7. Know what about me is of interest to you.

Easy rules I feel not many and simple to understand. I like slaves that are intelligent and strong they are my first choice and as their spirit lessend so do they drop a bit on my list.

CLoud

Old School Ways ... He Teaches Me Well, My Mentor

2008-11-03T07:23:00.004-05:00

A little to the left He says …..Keep your wrist locked …It’s all in the focus of the stroke, as He continues.

‘Whack’ ….. Whack, Whack …..

Hmmmm, as the sound of it echoes thru My basement walls, resonating as a sweet pounding rhythm to My ears, combined with the shiver, and mild jolt of the slaves torso trying in vain to escape My inflicting pain.

Yes, I am beginning to understand the sweetness of it all.

Since the beginning, My initiation as a Domme is unfolding in such a delicious way.

‘What is it that ‘You’ want Agdistis? As My Mentor poses the question to Me. Yes, quite, what is it that any of Us/us want in this lifestyle? Be Domme, or slave?

Does it even matter?

As long as We/we ‘feel’ something. Be it pain or pleasure, or both.

But what is it that ‘I’ want? I know this…:

To be filled to capacity. Where the sensations are intoxicating.
To know that the slaves I accept come to Me willingly and seek no substitutes.
A slave who is as fearless as I am in their natural state and who knows whom they are.

I want, I yearn, I need, I ache ….

Can a slave ‘really’ full-fill this Domme? Do they have the capacity to even understand the level of responsibility She would carry for them?

So now, I will follow and embrace the teachings of the ‘old school ways.’ As this ‘rite of passage’ is being given to Me as a gift. To utilize and measure both My ability in the simple tortures of a slave, to the responsibility of providing guidance, care and protection.

As well, because I know it will deliver Me what I seek …

- Agdistis

What drives me on

2008-10-31T06:25:00.007-04:00

What drives me on is how much pain can I inflict before the safe word. How much humiliation can I dump on them how close can I go to their edge? I draw enjoyment by their determination to out last my sessions. Fiercely holding on to that last shred of dignity as I slowly strip them of it.

Yesterday I was demonstrating how to use a rod on the backside of my slave boy. I tried to keep it clinical talking to my Agdistis through the strokes but found myself getting more and more into the rhythm of the stroke. It was so much fun watching the welts raise on his white ass. Then with my small paddle I gave a short course on the rapid-fire method of paddling. This type is seen in movies aas the governess is disciplining her charge with very quick unrelenting stokes, delivering several in a few seconds. slave boy danced to try and get away from them but I chased his squirming ass around to deliver a lovely reddening to it. He of course was tied to the rafters but with enough movement to make a sport of it. I love this stroke when they are bent over my knee they kick and squirm and curse as the paddle stings their ass like a thousand bees. SO much fun to see that reaction in the poor little things trying to be so brave, trying so hard to resist their quest of pleasure.

Poor slave looked at me when I told Agdistis how to use the leather belt. That she should not swing to hit his ass, but instead pretend to have a sword and then aim that you wish to cut through his as driving the blade to the back of his penis. The stance of course should be to the side of the slave to allow this stroke plus you can see the pain filled expression on his face when the follow through brings you hand past his body. Oh yes and you get to hear those grunts that they try to muffle. .

Next time I think it will be clothes pegs and tooth picks lets see how little things can cause all sorts of fun.

CLoud

Sessions or just a slaves life

2008-10-29T16:43:00.002-04:00

I use the word but dislike the concept of it. Session has been used as a word for reward and for punishment. IT almost seems like a date which is just not evil enough for me. Slavery does not stop after a session nor does it begin with the doorbell. I expect a slave to be in that mode 24/7 for me not just when they will see me or get a reward. Just because I am not there does not mean there are not rules and protocols to follow. It is not all about their little asses being beaten so they can enjoy flight.

What would I call it just a day in the life of my slave.Some days her performance is based on how she follows what I set down and some on how she serves me when I am there. Expectations for a slave should be only that I used her as I see fit.

I will have to say that the most interesting times I have with slaves is when they do not expect me to show up . Standing outside their door I call to say I am coming over then wait two minutes and ring the bell. If they have followed what I set down there is no problem but then how many slaves when given the idea that there is no possible way I would show up do not relax a bit. So for lack of a better word those sessions are so fun for me as they sweat having run around taking off their clothes or cleaning up so fun to see that face of shock when they open the door.

So, I guess till I figure out some new phrase I will have to call them session.

CLoud

A Jounery

2008-10-27T19:53:00.003-04:00

A journey always has a beginning . It must start either a physical or mental one. So in the lifestyle just like one in the vanilla, it can go straight but seldom does. Usually it has forks in the road or side journeys that beckon you away, you can loose direction way or find out that the road trip is just not worth it. Sometimes we find out we are just on the wrong road.

k has ,for many years journeyed along her road. Like us all now and then we must stick our heads out of the forest to make sure of our way or see if we are lost. K is now on one of those breaks . She might be back she might find a new direction to take . Lets hope what ever direction she takes her path will past this way again.

CLoud

Nicest words to my ears

2008-10-23T14:22:00.005-04:00

The nicest words I have heard is when a slave has read my blogs and said that they fear me. So much power given to me already and they have not met me only read my words.

Fear is such a delightful tool. The slave uses it to reach the ultimate goal of flight and orgasm. It is almost immediate the fear starts then the wetness forms . A trickle at first that one droplet that feels like a burning liquid runs down them internally until it reaches their lips. Fear causes some to jettison or at least wish to urinate as they hold their knees together in the hope they will not wet themselves.

Fear causes them to jump, fidget, be uncomfortable . All this caused by a few words of mine , how sweet. Do they fear their own imagination or do they fear being alone shackled and waiting for me to start. Do they fear what I can do with a flogger or do they fear, they will enjoy it just too much. Then more fear in the thought perhaps they will not experience this feeling again.

Fear a very sharp instrument to help in the enslavement of others and for the slave a path to orgasm.

Cloud

Why are you here

2008-10-20T23:34:00.003-04:00

A question asked of me by one of the first mentor Gregory. It is a question we should all asked our selves now and then. I enjoy the power and the control over others and the idea that I can do anything with in reason and they will thank me for it.

I enjoy seeing the struggle on their faces as the wait for my verdict on their work and their obedience. I enjoy seeing how much they will take to satisfy me and of course prove themselves so that they are allowed their reward of flight or orgasm.

If asked this of a slave what would they answer? Would a pain slut say that they are there because I like to inflict pain or that they need pain to fly. What makes a slave wish the beating, the humiliation , is it they need to serve or need the pain and so serve as payment for it. The control and humiliation to enhance their pleasure or is it to show what they will endure for a Master. Do they use the lack of control on their part as an excuses to do the unspeakable things desires held back by the morals of church and state. Is it the naughty pleasure of naked sexuality. Why does the slave start into the lifestyle?

CLoud

Consitence

2008-10-17T21:02:00.004-04:00

What do most slaves want ? TO be controlled to be given a sense of purpose by having some one take the lead make the decisions and tell them what to do. Their need is to serve and do the bidding of the Master. Do not expect or wish otherwise . They do not want to be liberated or have choice they want the master choice even though they might hate it not want to do it they show how good they are by overcoming that and doing it.

A slave that does not like some thing shows how much they care by doing their best possible job in the face of adversity. The easiest way of loosing a slave give them a choice. Do not give them structure , do not discipline them , do not correct the smallest of faults and you have open a chink in your armor and worse puts doubt in their mind. Oh he no long wants me. I am not serving him well he is looking for another. they enjoy the attention with out it you cannot ecpect to turn the slave in them off and on when you want it is too much of a commitment for them to be able to do so. They must have the punishment s , the tasks and the rules.

There are like children or puppies act with a consistent firm hand and they grow strong things of value weaken the grip and they develop delinquent ways. Slaves when they feel their worse need more of a firm hand and guide to positive thinking then a nurse. NO I do not mean that at the first signs of a cold you should taken them out for some outdoor bondage in January . I mean you tell l them what to do and how to do if they do not heed your words you show your love by forcing them. A simple grab of their ear a suppository up the ass gets their attention quite quickly.

I have been told I am scary , mean , nasty and uncaring surprisingly never has one of my slaves aid this. Always from those looking on . I have been told I am strict , that I punish a lot and I am consistent and I do not go out of role with my slaves . That for me is a key.

A slave does not come to me for my looks , that I have a lot of money. It is because I give them a perception of their desires. I give control consistency, fairness and a black and white way of life. If you error you are punished , if you do good you are rewarded very simple very clear if you do what I say you do good if you choose not to you r punished how simple. No gray area no if ands or buts unless it is their butt and I am whipping it. I like power I am sadistic , they like not having power they are masochistic. I enjoy developing challenges they enjoy surpassing the difficulty to serve hmmm and so why do some Masters tinker with this concept I do not know. It is a very good think we have we compliment each other so why the need to do it differently?

These thoughts were based on a blog by littleone a friend you can read her at
WWW.wtsubbie.blogspot.com

CLOUD